Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines. ~Robert Schuller
As I was driving into Philadelphia for the second time this week it occurred to me that I probably blew up a lot of feed readers yesterday by posting all of those posts from 2005. Me, being me, never thought that those posts were going to show up in your feed reader and I apologize for being inconsiderate. Going forward I’m going to post one new post and one old post per day.
Of course there are probably on two people who didn’t delete me…I know I would have deleted me.
So, I saw my cousin, the doctor, yesterday and I’m sure there are a lot of pregnant women still pissed off because he spent an hour with me which put him way behind schedule. I don’t know why I didn’t go to him in the first place. He listened to me and took action.
It’s possible that I’m going for a threepeat of cancer. Since I had over 25 CT Scans last year my doctor thinks I’ve had too much radiation so I’m going to get an MRI. It will be a few weeks before I know anything. I’ve been down this road before so I’m not going to freak out.
On my ride home from the doctor I thought about what I’d do if I have cancer again. I thought about my family, friends and how they would react. How would I want them to react?
How would I react if you told me you had cancer for the third time? I’d probably act like a schmuck and say all of the wrong things like, “oh, you’ll be just fine,” or “the probability of surviving cancer a third time isn’t high.” I say the stupidest things in these situations. I’ve never been very good at consoling people yet even when someone tells me “to hang in there” I feel better than them having not saying anything at all.
And I have to ask…how about Chickeze?
Photo Credit: David R. Munsun
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Lucy 03.12.08 at 8:28 am
You didn’t blow up my feed reader and I didn’t delete you!
So sorry to hear that it’s possible that it’s back for a 3rd time, but glad were finally able to be seen by a doctor and get it checked out. And I’m like you, I never know what to say, so I’ll just say “hang in there”. And I mean it.
{{{{big fat hugs}}}}
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Robin 03.12.08 at 9:09 am
I didn’t delete you but I did wonder if you had lost your mind.
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Colleen 03.12.08 at 10:44 am
Cancer bites. The thought of cancer coming back bites.
Chickeze rocked!!!!
You did not blow up my feed reader. I have been with you since you were RB and I figured you would be back.
ocb 03.12.08 at 11:08 am
You don’t have cancer again. Trust me I would know. And I know you don’t! No really I asked the magic 8 ball and it knows ALL! But for reals..no. And that’s all there is to say about that k?
Chickeze surprised the hell out of me last night!
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Poppy 03.12.08 at 11:26 am
What OCB said about Chickeze.
PandoraWilde 03.12.08 at 3:39 pm
I freakin’ missed that part of the show–does anyone know where I can legally see it?
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Chatty 03.12.08 at 4:31 pm
Chickeze was fooking amazing! I love it.
I didn’t delete you either.
Well, it sounds like you finally have a doctor that knows what the hell is going on. That’s key. Keep us posted!!
Lisa 03.12.08 at 7:20 pm
Lucy, You are such a great bloggy friend for not deleting me.
Unfortunately, cancer can come back a gazillion times if it doesn’t kill you first. Ovarian cancer is notorious for coming back.
Robin, I lost my mind years ago. Had you thought something changed???
Colleen, Cancer sucks ass too.
You’ve been reading this crap since back then? I love you…thanks for sticking around.
ocB, Dammit, why didn’t we consult the Magic 8 Ball in the first place?
Poppy, I loved his performance so much that I watched it twice and I’m going to download it from iTunes.
Pandora, Have you tried the American Idol website? I’m not sure what they have there but I’d check it.
Chatty, I loved that he surprised me so much! Thank you for not deleting me either. I think my doctor learned from what just happened to me. He doesn’t want it to ever happen again.
Sister D 03.12.08 at 8:04 pm
if i had the gumption to find that stupid poster of the cat hanging from the power line with the caption ‘hang in there’, i would. in all seriousness, i’m here to hold your hand. it may not be a physical hand holding, but it’s there if you need it. i’ll send many positive thoughts in the northerly direction. i think they’re completely under-rated and that they completely work! and i’ll be home in 2 weeks, so get that hand ready!
annie 03.12.08 at 9:18 pm
Chickeze was awesome!
(I can’t believe I’m watching AI this year!)
I like Amanda, too. Except for the week she did that horrible Kansas song. But, she’s different and cool.
I almost threw up at that country verion of “8 days a week”, he said it sounded like Dolly Parton on Helium? Now, how is that possible? She already sound helium-y.
NO, it sounded like Dolly Parton on CRACK.
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Lisa 03.12.08 at 9:44 pm
Sister D, I know the cat you are talking about! As well as the hand…
Did you talk to Dad? He got sprung from the joint today. Figures…we’ll get him all straightened out and I’ll go down hill.
You’ll be home the weekend of TOO’s birthday???
annie, Stop it…you are watching AI? I love Amanda. I can totally see why you would like her too.
Hey did you know that the Rolling Stones have a new movie coming out on April 4th?
OMG, Dolly Parton on CRACK just sang again.
Tense Teacher 03.12.08 at 10:44 pm
Yay, a doctor that listens and takes action! Halle-frickin-lujah!
I know I would say all the wrong things to someone who had cancer for the third time; I feel so inept when people I like or love are hurting.
As for AI… I never watch it after the tryouts. I like the sad souls who THINK they can sing.
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Colleen 03.13.08 at 1:14 am
FYI, your blog was one of the first I stumbled upon when I started reading blogs. I found it engaging, funny and real. I still do.
Lisa 03.13.08 at 6:37 am
Tense, You are really missing out on great talent this year.
I, too, am completely inept when trying to console people. I wouldn’t want people to feel like they would say the wrong thing to me because really there is no wrong thing other than silence.
Colleen, I’ve often wondered why you never had your own blog…or do you?
Avitable 03.13.08 at 9:34 am
Didn’t you do that with Twitter, too? We’re just used to Clusterfook Overload!
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annie 03.13.08 at 1:10 pm
Holy cow! I shouldn’t type at night- typo’s galore!
What is this Rolling Stones movie? Do you have to see it at an “Imax”? Isn’t that the 3-d theatre with the big-screen and steep seating?
You know, we don’t have one here in booney-town.
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Sister D 03.13.08 at 9:43 pm
actually, i’ll be home the weekend b/w Teeny’s birthday and TOO’s birthday. it’s next weekend, the 21st. and, yeah, i talked to dad yesterday and today. he sounds so much better b/c he’s home. he better keep it this way!
Lisa 03.13.08 at 11:27 pm
Avitable, you had to remind me, didn’t you? My blog isn’t named Clusterfook without reason…just in case you wondered.
annie, Where are the typos? Am I smoking crack again? I’ll put down the pipe.
Check out the today’s post…it links to the Stones new film. I’m pretty sure it’s only going to be at an IMAX theater.
Sister D, Are you coming home for any reason in particular? Like do you have time for SUSHI????
Colleen 03.14.08 at 12:29 am
I don’t have my own blog. I started reading blogs as an escape from what was going on in my own life. I didn’t want to blog about my kids (too mommy blog) or blog about what goes on otherwise — helping and now failing to help my father battle cancer. I read blogs (and comment) to escape what I’m dealing with or to realize what I’m dealing with is no different than what many people go through. I identify with so much that you write about that sometimes I find it a bit spooky. Hope that makes sense.
Tracy 03.19.08 at 8:54 am
You totally blew up my feeds and I’m still here. A little late, but I’m here!
Hang in there honey. You know we’re here for you if you need us. *HUGS*
Um, what is Chickeze?
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Lisa 03.20.08 at 4:52 am
Tracy, Chickeze…American Idol. Can you watch that in Canada? I’m so stupid when it comes to Canada/U.S. related stuff.