It’s kind of fun to do the impossible.
~Walt Disney
After a year of continuously falling out finally, finally, finally my hair is growing back in. I’ve been overdosing on protein shakes and zinc for the past two months and now I have about an inch of new spiked hair all over my head. See the picture to the right? Well the spikes are mixed in with that ‘do’. It’s oh so chic.
So, I thought it was time to see my hairstylist and as I picked up the phone to make an appointment it occurred to me that I had a more important call to make. I had to make an appointment for an MRI. After all it took two days to get the damn pre-authorization.
Getting my hair done sounds a hell of lot better than a closed MRI where I’ll not only be enclosed in tight quarters but my ass will be sedated because I’m extremely claustrophobic. As long as they knock me out and let me listen to some Rolling Stones for the hour they have me in that tube it’s all good.
After I made the appointment the realization that if I have cancer for a third time the odds that I’ll beat it aren’t as high as they were the first two times. I don’t say that as a pessimist or to feel sorry for myself because that’s not the case. I say that because it’s reality and I accept it on some level. Making the appointment for the MRI was the beginning of that acceptance.
All of this got me to thinking…what am I going to do if I have cancer again? If I’m going to die? I mean, what would you do?
I’d take my daughters to Disney World, ride all of the scary rides I’m always afraid of and eat as much junk food as I want…
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Dave2 03.19.08 at 12:12 am
Sounds as good a plan as any… but you might want to spend a day over at Universal Studios, because The Incredible Hulk Coaster is worth a ride or two…
Tracy 03.19.08 at 12:52 am
I’m thinking only positive thoughts for you, hon. Although I’m pretty positive Disney World would be a lot of fun…
Hang in there girl! Love you. *HUGS*
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Tug 03.19.08 at 12:54 am
I hope you know that I feel it goes without saying, but I hope you have the best results! THAT BEING SAID…I made an appointment - I go in tomorrow for my ‘yearly’ 1/2…I’m late. I have your previous post of symptoms in mind, and many questions. And tonight? I went over living will details with my parents…and then with my daughter. My parents, because they’re getting theirs updated - my daughter, because I need to update mine (everything I’ve read is it’s by state, and I’ve moved - that’s all).
MUCH LUCK TO YOU. Many glass 1/2 full thoughts, many prayers.
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Colleen 03.19.08 at 1:17 am
Lisa,
As I’ve (we’ve) said before, cancer sucks. But, boy, does it make us think! How about, no matter what, you go to Disney and ride all the scary rides with your daughters? How about, no matter what, you indulge in junk food — maybe not all the time, but an occasionally slip has got to be OK — no matter what.
I hate what cancer has done to my own family, but dealing with it at such a personal level has made me less timid about savoring every moment.
That said, I am praying you remain cancer-free (and you take the trip to Disney anyway!)
Lisa 03.19.08 at 6:44 am
Dave, I missed Universal the first time we went there. That’s a good suggestion. I hope that I get the chance to take my girls to Disney again.
Tracy, I think Disney would be great…
Tug, It’s best to ask a lot of questions and even better to write them down so you go in there with the list…that way you don’t forget them.
Excellent idea to have the living will in place. What a clusterfuck it caused me when I didn’t have power of attorney in place when I was in a coma. A year later I’m still paying the price for that. You are a smart cookie.
I hope that everything turns out o.k. Please keep me informed.
Colleen, I know that cancer has had a deep affect on you and your family although I wish it hasn’t.
Unfortunately taking the girls to Disneyland is something I’m unable to do financially. Too bad there is no Adult Miracle Network. You know like the one they have for children when they are ill. I don’t think we will ever get back there but it’s one of the things I’d love to do with them again.
Avitable 03.19.08 at 2:29 pm
You could run naked through a taping of Late Night or the Superbowl. That’s what I’d do.
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Lisa 03.19.08 at 6:08 pm
What about naked through Epcot? Then I could say I ran around the world naked!
You would definitely have to eat a Gizmo for the ultimate food nirvana.
All I have on my mind is food and alcohol.
And amusement rides..
tori 03.19.08 at 9:16 pm
damn. good. plan….
cajunvegan 03.20.08 at 5:05 pm
Travel … travel … travel
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annie 03.20.08 at 5:15 pm
I have no idea what I would do.
Maybe, liquidate all my assets and travel around the world. If I felt well enough.
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Lisa 03.20.08 at 7:20 pm
Tori, Damn. Skippy. It. Is.
cajun v, Where would you go?
annie, Where do you think your first stop would be?
Sister D 03.20.08 at 8:00 pm
okay, this is totally not related and completely off-topic, but i just noticed that when you scroll over my name it says ‘like tenacious d, but earthier’. that made my otherwise sucky week way better. thank you for that.
Lisa 03.20.08 at 9:40 pm
Sister D, The fact that you noticed that made my sucky ass week way better. I was wondering how long it was going to take you.
PandoraWilde 03.20.08 at 11:14 pm
They let you listen to tunes during your MRI? I’m SO jealous–all they let me listen to is that buzzing and grinding shit and some voice telling me they can’t give me more sedation for another 30 seconds, then the countdown to the end of the freakout.
I’m praying for you and hoping all goes well, even when I just lurk because I don’t have words for what you’ve faced and still have to go thru. I just shut my babbling piehole and pray again.
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Kentucky Girl 03.21.08 at 5:07 pm
I’ve never had a closed MRI. How much different are they than the open one. The ones that I’ve been in have all been these like….big disks in this room where you’re all alone and it is loud and there is no music. I don’t really like them but I’m sure I wouldn’t enjoy anything where I have to go inside of it. Ack god that makes my heart race just thinking of it.
Hope things work out, babe. Love you.
Oh yeah, I vote for Disneyworld, too.