Dear Blog Friends

by Lisa on March 31, 2008

in Cancer Sucks, WTF?

Dearest Blog Friends,

I can’t believe what I have to tell you. I’m in utter disbelief myself. So much so that I’m drinking wine on a Monday evening. I’m trying hard not to freak out, to stay strong and to remain calm.

O.K., I’m taking a deep breath…in…out…shit, I’m not breathing.

You see my blog friends I feel horrible that I have to tell you this because you have always been so supportive. At this moment I feel like I’m letting you down but I really need your support so please…don’t run away. I need every once of support I can get.

I know I used to be a funny, bitchy blogger and that lately I’ve become quite depressing but life is like that sometimes. Deep in my heart I’m still that funny, bitchy girl that I love so much…that you love so much. You know me, I keep it real no matter what.

And this is no different…

For the life of me I never fathomed that I’d have to share this news with you again and I’m deeply sorry. I wish I could tell you that I landed that six figure job, but instead I have to tell you something more grim…

It’s a threepeat…I have cancer.

I’m sorry. I really didn’t want to tell you but I always put myself out there, so why would this be any different?

The cancer is different this time…it’s spread to some of my organs. I don’t understand what any of it means except that my cousin, the doctor, kept saying, “Lisa, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry.”

Dearest Blog Friends…I realize that once again I’ve left you in a speechless position but would you do something for me? Seriously. If you have made it to the end of this post, whether by feed reader or by stopping by the blog…don’t feel speechless.

Use the comments to tell me one thing…just one thing that you are grateful for today. Even if it’s Peanut M&Ms because I could really go for some Peanut M&Ms right now. The comments are all about gratitude today…

Gratitude…and I’m grateful for my blog friends.

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1 Monique 03.31.08 at 8:40 pm

Oh Lisa, I wish I could give you a big hug. You are one of the strongest people I know, both online and in the “real world.” Thank you so much for your willingness to share your story and allow us into your life. What am I grateful for? Friends. And you have many.

Monique’s last blog post..Back at Home ?

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2 Lucy 03.31.08 at 8:45 pm

Lisa, I am grateful for becoming friends with you. Even though it is just through the internets, I am grateful for YOU. I would love to be close enough to come give you a big hug in person. You are a fantastic person and this shit is not fair. Your willingness to share your struggles with everyone is a blessing. Much love to you girl. Please feel free to email me ANYTIME if you need someone to talk to….or give me a call. I’ll email you my cell number.

bigfatfuckinghugs

Lucy’s last blog post..The Ingenuity of Engineers

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3 Poppy 03.31.08 at 8:49 pm

I am grateful that you share with us.

Stay strong, and start living life how you want to live it, to the fulllllest.

Now’s your chance, sweetie. Just do it.

You will get plenty of hugs on May 3 if you’re up to coming still.

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4 Tori 03.31.08 at 8:50 pm

I realize that no matter what… there’s someone out there who gives a shit… no matter how sick I am, how down I am, how much I hate the world… someone loves me. It’s that one (or 2 or dozen) people that matter, no one else… even when I think I don’t matter… I have to keep moving for them…

Keep moving Lisa… for me… please…

Tori’s last blog post..New Music Monday?

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5 Sodapop 03.31.08 at 9:02 pm

I am grateful that I have people like you in my life today. People who remind me everyday to live life to it’s fullest no matter what the challenges faced.

I wish I was within driving distance of you, I would drive to your house and sit with you. I’d drink wine with you, break bread with you and hug you.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other and when you can’t do that, I hope that I can be there to help you do it.

Sodapop’s last blog post..Boycotting

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6 Hilly 03.31.08 at 9:04 pm

I am grateful that I can be here to listen, no matter how small and insignificant that may be. I am grateful that you have so many people who care about you. I am grateful for you.

I am sorry this happened to you yet again and I will be praying for you ( I don’t know what you believe in but since *I* believe in it, I’ll do it!).

Hilly’s last blog post..100 Things About Me: A Dozen More Admissions Of Insanity!

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7 Jen 03.31.08 at 9:07 pm

I am keeping you in my prayers. I’m sorry that this has hit you again.

BIG HUGS

I too am grateful for this wonderful blogging community. The bloggers seem to be the only people who will be supportive and tell you like it is when you’re family and real life friends fail to do so.

Jen’s last blog post..Packing

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8 adena 03.31.08 at 9:09 pm

I’m following Hilly’s orders to come here, and now that I did…

I’m very sorry, and will hope and pray that everything works out okay for you!!

adena’s last blog post..Dear Shopper at Wal-Mart:

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9 Avitable 03.31.08 at 9:09 pm

Please don’t apologize. You don’t have to apologize for anything, ever.

I’m grateful for the people I’ve met through blogging that I never would have met otherwise.

I’m grateful that I met someone who likes cheesecake even more than me!

If there is anything you need, just let us know. We’re here.

Avitable’s last blog post..PPH Bossy

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10 jester 03.31.08 at 9:17 pm

I’m grateful for every moment that the sun is shining, or the rain is falling, or the moon shines brightly. Every day could potentially be any of our last days. I’m grateful that the internet introduces us to people whose paths we would never otherwise cross.

Wishing you a speedy and complete recovery.

jester’s last blog post..Caption Me

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11 geek 03.31.08 at 9:20 pm

I’m grateful to be able to be here if you have need of me. (us really Tense and I are a matched pair)

geek’s last blog post..Sunday

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12 Tense Teacher 03.31.08 at 9:20 pm

As so many others have said, I am grateful for the friends I have made through blogging. I am thankful that we can spill out our hearts and souls and connect with others who think as we do. I am thankful for the strength of my friends, you first and foremost among them, because they help me to realize that no matter how bad life may sometimes be, I have people who will lift me up when I need it. And I am grateful that those friends allow me to do the same for them when they are in need.

I will be praying for you and will ask others to pray for you, as well. Much love.

Tense Teacher’s last blog post..?Call me but love and I’ll be new baptized??

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13 Black Belt Mama 03.31.08 at 9:31 pm

I’m so sorry. I came here from the Tequila Con Spreadsheet and found this post. I’ll make sure to add you to my prayers. I read your previous post too and that is just plain messed up.

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14 sizzle 03.31.08 at 9:39 pm

Hilly shared your post on Google Reader. I haven’t been here before but couldn’t not come by after hearing your story. At first I wanted to believe that this was a really, really awful April Fool’s Day prank. :(

You asked for us to tell you what we are grateful for today and so, to honor that request, I’d say I am grateful for my sense of humor which has gotten me through some very rough times.

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15 Sister D 03.31.08 at 9:39 pm

you know what i would say to you. i had a seriously long chat with my roommate this afternoon when i got home and we both agree that the power of positive thinking, the strong attitude you have and the great determination you have for life will bring you through this. i just know it. and i also know that you will be an auntie, especially if i have anything to do with it!

even though i’m a couple hundred miles away, i’m here for you and please know that the tingling you feel in your hand is my hand.

i love you sister!

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16 miss britt 03.31.08 at 9:49 pm

I’m grateful that when I am not strong enough, my friends have been.

And I will gratefully return the favor.

Xoxo

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17 Nat 03.31.08 at 9:51 pm

I’d hoped beyond hoped that it was “nothing”. I’m so sorry.

On the lighter side, because you might need it.
I am thankful to my son, who made me get out the choc. mint ice cream.
The Man who got me jujubes and dill pickle chips.
To my boss, who is kind, gentle and open with me and gives me the scoop
To my dear friends who share all their adventures with me and don’t get too panicked when I say “So… can I blog about this?”
To the fine folks at Brooks who make a damn fine running shoe.
The vineyards of Australia for producing some damn fine shiraz.
To the internet for all the wacky and wonderful people we meet along the way.

Big hugs.
And yeah, I am thankful for peanut M&Ms too.

Nat’s last blog post..Line! The Sequel

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18 Rachael 03.31.08 at 9:54 pm

I’m grateful for coffee and chocolate and my family to hug. I’m so sorry. :(

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19 bluepaintred 03.31.08 at 10:00 pm

I am grateful that BBQ season started today becuase I did not have to cook dinner.

I am so horribly sad for you lisa.

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20 Divalicious 03.31.08 at 10:03 pm

I am grateful for all the friends I have met on line. (yes, that means you too)

If there is anything you need let me know, seriously. *hugs* ?

Divalicious’s last blog post..It’s Official!

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21 RedBetty 03.31.08 at 10:05 pm

I am grateful for my morning coffee, my job, my car, a roof over my head…

Lisa! I come back from my year long hiatus and have to hear this! I’m so SORRY!! <>

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22 cajunvegan 03.31.08 at 10:29 pm

I am grateful, Lisa, that the Cult of Insanity allowed me to discover you and many other fabulous blogger friends.

I hope that you find the strength and positivity to make it through this dreadful disease for a third and final time.

You are in my thoughts.

cajunvegan’s last blog post..Brought to You by the Roman Numeral X

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23 Tug 03.31.08 at 10:31 pm

I’m so very grateful that I’ve gotten to ‘know’ you, and I am here. I’m grateful for my amazing guardian angels, who I’m sending your way, along with many many prayers… I’m grateful for each and every day.

I’m fairly new here, but you know I’m here, and please PLEASE e-mail if you ever want to talk – I have VERY broad shoulders, and many many hugs to give…if you’d like, I’ll send you my phone number.

And like Avi said…no apologies necessary, ever.

Tug’s last blog post..Someone shut my mouth for me please

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24 Lisa 03.31.08 at 11:15 pm

Holy Shit…I’m overwhelmed by all of your gratitude! Let me see if I can respond to all of you before I pass out!

Monique, I don’t know how strong I am. I live by the motto, “It is what it is.” That helps me accept things much easier and much faster. I know that I’m very grateful for my online friends and though a lot of people debate whether or not online friend are “real” I have no doubt that they are.

Lucy, I don’t know if my willingness to be so open is a blessing…I mean the Internet could probably use less of the word fuck but what the fuck? You know? I got your number and if you hear someone hysterical laughing or hysterical crying…that’s probably me. **hugs**

Poppy, Thank you. I’m going to do my best to stay strong. If I could life to its fullest then I’d like to go to Disneyworld…with my daughters. If someone finds an Adult Miracle Network let me know.

I still plan on coming on May 3 as long as my ass isn’t in a Philadelphia hospital. In that case then all of you will have to come visit ME!

Tori, Isn’t it most comforting to know that there’s someone there for you…no matter what?

As long as my body will allow me to…I’ll keep moving. :)

Soda, It’s a shame that we need things like this to be reminded to live life to its fullest but if that’s the lesson all of us take from this, then at least we’ve learned something very valuable.

Hey, if you feel the need for a road trip Pennsylvania is just hours…O.K. maybe nine, ten??

I think the Internet should make a road trip to my house. Can you imagine???

A Clusterfook Road Trip???

Hilly, You are amazing. I do believe in God…just not in the biblical God. I mean I believe in heaven and hell. I pray. I talk to God while I’m in the car. I talk to God while I sit in the back yard and have a cup of coffee…that’s where I go to church. God and I have an informal relationship that works.

And I’m sure God is teaching me, you and all of us something through all of this.

Jen, Sometimes that’s so true. No one will tell you the truth like a blogger. Although you could ask Sister D. She’ll tell you that I will tell everyone the truth no matter what…Internet and to their face.

adena, Thank you so much for your support. I truly appreciate it.

Avitable, I hate delivering bad news. I think I feel worse about telling people that I have cancer again more than I feel bad about actually having again.

I’ll need more cheesecake…and after you finish speed reading a really good novel?…can I borrow them because I’ll need some good reading material while I’m riding in the car to Philadelphia and during treatment.

jester, Ahhh, I love those simple things as well…the sun, the rain, the moon…and crossing paths with people…

Very nice to meet you :)

geek, Thank you geek…I love the side comment ;)

Tense, For the many reasons you mentioned I, too, am grateful for my blog friends…you included. Thank you for your support and prayers.

Black Belt Mama, I e-mailed you privately ;) …as it turns out we are practically neighbors whose paths have crossed in another circle.

sizzle, That Hilly…I didn’t know you could do something like that on Google Reader. I wish it was an April Fool’s prank. I’m grateful for the same thing…sense of humor. Isn’t is amazing how it can get you through the worst of times? Thank you for stopping by to offer words of support.

Sister D, You know that I just love you. I will make it through this…like I told you on the phone…I have to see the day you get married, the day you have children, the day I get to be a REAL aunt…not to mention all of that with my own children.

I love you too sister!

Miss Britt, That’s what friends are for…I’m so glad my friends will do the same.

Nat, LOL @ you son who made you get out of the ice cream. And I love the line “So..can I blog about this?”

I still want some Peanut M&Ms too!!

Rachael, Ohhhh, coffee!!! What would we do without coffee??? And our family? I’ll do chocolate only if it’s dark :)

bluepaintred, BBQ…omg…I want some BBQ. It’s going to be O.K. It has to be O.K. And when it’s better you can make me some BBQ!!!

With corn on the cob.

Divalicious, Aww thanks. I’m very grateful for my online friends as well.

I’ll need cheesecake…Talk to Avitable about the last time I had cancer. And care packages with fun things to do. And Peanut M&Ms.

I’m a child.

RedBetty????, Get the FUCK out of here!!!! Where the hell have you been? OMG!!! I’m so happy to see you!!!! Welcome back!

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25 Karen Sugarpants 03.31.08 at 11:15 pm

I’m grateful for friends who lift me up when I am down. I sure hope I can do the same for you.
Much love, baby. xoxoxoxo

Karen Sugarpants’s last blog post..Throwing Out The Skinny

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26 Lisa 03.31.08 at 11:15 pm

I stumbled upon your blog through another blogger ’sharing’ your post on the feed reader. First, I’m so sorry to hear your news. And, second, because you asked, today I am grateful for a wonderful, understanding friend who’s stuck by me through all of my rough times. I can only hope you have the same support I have.

Lisa’s last blog post..eggscellent in someone elses eyes

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27 Mrs. Flinger 03.31.08 at 11:16 pm

I’m grateful for blogging and the people it brings us to.

Mrs. Flinger’s last blog post..Friday Flashback Time!

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28 Karen Sugarpants 03.31.08 at 11:17 pm

p.s. I WILL see you at TequilaCon.

Karen Sugarpants’s last blog post..Throwing Out The Skinny

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29 Lisa 03.31.08 at 11:17 pm

Karen, I love friends like you and everyone else who lift me up when I’m down. Thank you sooo much. OMG, you are coming to Philadelphia? Awesome. I hope that I’ll be well enough to attend. Hell, if they have to wheel me in…I’ll be there.

Lisa, Thank you for stopping by to show your support. I have a friend who stands by me no matter what too which means everything to me. Good friends are awesome.

Mrs. Flinger, Yes, isn’t that the most awesome thing about blogging? The people who have come here tonight, like yourself have touched me in ways that you’ll never know.

Thank you.

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30 usedtobeme 03.31.08 at 11:23 pm

Oh Lisa. This post made me cry. I don’t even know you. But I feel like I do. I wish I was closer because I would come and sit with you. Even if we sat in silence (because I sure in the hell don’t have anything positive to say right now). I know you are afraid and I don’t know what to tell you. I would be afraid too. I would be angry and sad and scared and hurt and pissed off and afraid and scared. I would want to take my kids close to me and not let them go. I would want to shut myself off from the whole wide world and focus only on my life. Please, if you decide to go that route (and I will respect it), let me know. Because I do think of you all the time and I’m so so so so so sorry you have to go through this again. I never say this to people on line because it seems so fake and “the thing to say-ish” but I do love you and I wish I could wrap my arms around you right now. I’ll be thinking of you. And as cliché as it is, if you need ANYTHING you call me.

Me

usedtobeme’s last blog post..I don’t go online for one day and look what happens

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31 usedtobeme 03.31.08 at 11:24 pm

Wow, I didn’t have anything remotely uplifting to say. I’m an ass.

usedtobeme’s last blog post..I don’t go online for one day and look what happens

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32 cajunvegan 03.31.08 at 11:25 pm

I am grateful, Lisa, that the Cult of Insanity allowed me to discover you and many other fabulous blogger friends.

I hope that you find the strength and positivity to make it through this dreadful disease for a third and final time.

You are in my thoughts.

cajunvegan’s last blog post..I’m Sexy. I’m Cute. I’m Popular to Boot.

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33 NYCWD 03.31.08 at 11:31 pm

I’m grateful that I have the opportunity to meet like minded people, like you, I may not have met otherwise.

*HUGS*

NYCWD’s last blog post..Hugeness

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34 yoshi 04.01.08 at 12:20 am

Some of the greatest friends I have, I met online. I have only met 1 of them in real life, but I plan on meeting more. I’m thankful for them. That being said…

Today I totally scored 102,000 on Through the Fire and Flames on Guitar Hero today. I was so proud. :D

That might be anything big to other people, but to me it’s an accomplishment!

Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

yoshi’s last blog post..Vytorin doesn’t do a damn thing…

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35 DutchBitch 04.01.08 at 12:43 am

Hey Girl, worked my way over there thru Lucy’s. I can’t believe your bad news and am SO sorry to hear it. Wishing you all the strenght I can possibly wish you from over here in Dutchyland. Hang in there.

DutchBitch’s last blog post..Do NOT Go There

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36 Laci 04.01.08 at 1:58 am

Like many of the others here, I’m grateful for my friends… both the ones I know IRL and the ones I have online. Our blogging circle is small and I feel like I can turn to you guys more than some of my friends IRL.

I’m thinking about you — and praying for you. If you need anything, EVER, all you have to do is ask.

(((((superfuckinghugehugs)))))

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37 Danalyn 04.01.08 at 2:05 am

Wow…I don’t think there any words to describe just how much this sucks… :cry:

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38 Colleen 04.01.08 at 2:23 am

Lisa,

I’ve been offline most of the day and just read your post. I am GRATEFUL that you are here, sharing, fighting, crying and just “being”. I hate that you are enduring this again — but am willing to do what I can from afar to help a friend — because I feel like you are a friend.

I know too well the devastation that cancer brings, but I also know the blessings it can bring also — a closeness to family that was lost, a chance to share love that was difficult to share before and the strength to fight with every fiber of your being. I send my blessings to you and your family during this tough time.

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39 Dave2 04.01.08 at 4:12 am

I’m grateful that even in the ugliest of times, there’s beauty to be found in this world if you can just have the strength to look for it.

Sometimes just knowing this is enough to keep me going, even when my strength is failing me.

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40 Chatty 04.01.08 at 5:28 am

I am grateful for friends and I am one. Please do not hesitate to email if you need something. Need my number? Ask for it. You definitely won’t go through this alone.

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41 Lisa 04.01.08 at 6:59 am

cajun v, I’m sorry I missed you in the first round of commenting there…

I’m also grateful for the same Cult of Insanity that has allowed me to discover so many wonderful bloggers friends. I’m also hoping to find the strength and the ability to stay positive through this a third time. With the support I have offline and online I may just be able to do it.

Tug, Thanks you for sending some guardian angels…I’m going to need a few. I will keep your email handy. I’m going to need all of the support I can get.

I have the feeling text messaging is going to come in handy as well.

UTBM, I can imagine that if we were friends who lived in close proximity you would have come over, we would have sat on my couch and we probably would have laughed and cried. Sometimes just having someone there…even when they don’t know what to say…is better than not having someone there at all. Believe me, I love you too for all the support you give me no matter what it is that happens in my life.

You have no reason to feel like an ass because your comments were more uplifting than you can see. Believe me, they were.

NYCWD, Thanks Dawg…I know that I’m grateful for your honesty and wonderful sense of humor.

Yoshi, I, too, am grateful for the friends I’ve met online.

Wow, you totally rocked GHIII. I haven’t made it remotely close to you. Perhaps if I make it through this we can rock out together ;)

DutchBitch, Hey Girl! Good to see you, just sorry it’s under these circumstances. Thank you for the well wishes.

Laci, I feel the same way about our blogging circle…sometimes my blogging friends understand me better than the real world does.

Thanks you so much for your kindness…I’ll probably require cheesecake, care packages with girly things and things to do like word searches and books…LOL.

Danalyn, Yes, it sucks balls bigtime…but you forgot to tell me what you are grateful for. Peanut M&Ms??? I still want some…

Colleen, I feel like you are a friend as well…after all, you’ve been around for a long time ;)

I know how close to home cancer has hit you so I appreciate that you can share that with me. Thank you.

Dave2, Wow, that is so true…you also have to be willing to look for it as well.

I’m also grateful for Bad Monkey on my iPhone…he makes me smile every time I have to use it.

Chatty, Thank you Chatty…I’m grateful for friends like you. I’m extremely grateful that I don’t have to go through this alone because I don’t think I would make it through it.

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42 diz 04.01.08 at 7:10 am

Shit, Lisa. I’m so sorry. I don’t comment often but I do read, and… just, fuck.

If I’m really thinking about it, I guess I am grateful for the realizations I’m suddenly able to make about myself as I leave my twenties behind. Some things are starting to click, and I guess that’s a good thing when so much in this world just doesn’t make any sense.

I’m thinking of you.

diz’s last blog post..Philadelphia Freedom

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43 Bio 04.01.08 at 7:17 am

I’m grateful for the bruise that my baby sister left on my arm when she “playfully” punched me in the arm after reading a snippet from my manuscript: she was so involved in it that how it ended caused that reaction. I poured encouragement into her life and now I am getting it in return from her (although this form kinda hurts still!). It never ceases to amaze me how by opening our hearts and exposing ourselves, we reap strength from it in return.

You are one strong woman Lisa. You’ve opened your heart to complete strangers here, now let us all carry you on our shoulders and fight with you. You are loved, never forget that. =)

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44 This Mom 04.01.08 at 7:21 am

I think today my answer is much different than it would have been a couple months ago.

Today I am thankful for each and every minute I have with my family. My husband, children and myself are happy and healthy, and I cling to that through everything.

Also, the blogging world proved to me today through reading your comments that there are a lot of amazing people out there in the world, and you are so very lucky to have such a network of support.

I’ll be praying (its my way of dealing with things) for you and your family. Stay strong. And don’t ever feel like you have to apologize for anything.

This Mom’s last blog post..Heroes

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45 Poppy 04.01.08 at 8:32 am

Could you please tell us this is an April Fool’s joke and mean it? Please?

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46 Carol Anne 04.01.08 at 8:42 am

I don’t have anything brilliant or funny to say, but you are in my thoughts. I’ll light a candle.

Today I’m grateful for the good night’s sleep I got last night.

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47 Jen, South Florida 04.01.08 at 9:04 am

Oh my baby love. I am so sorry. We are all here for you.

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48 DaDuck 04.01.08 at 9:12 am

ooh hon! WOW! My thoughts are with you and your family. I am sending good, get well, kick its ass vibes your way! Keep your chin up!

DaDuck’s last blog post..Delayed post

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49 Gina 04.01.08 at 9:46 am

I’m one of your new readers and I’m very sad for you. I’m sorry. I’m grateful to read your words because they make me feel as though my woe is me moment that I was having, has suddenly become not that important. What is important is that there are others out there who are need support and encouragement much more.

I will be thinking good thoughts for you and keep you in my prayers.

I’m really glad to have found your blog, you really are an inspiration. You have a lot of courage to sit down and let everyone know.

Hang in there. All the best.

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50 LC 04.01.08 at 10:08 am

Holy shit girl. I came over to let you know I’d switched blogs and I find this post. I am so sorry. You will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers everyday as you once again, KICK THIS CANCERS ASS !!!! I mean that !!!!

I’m grateful for my kids, my Husband and all of the awesome friends in my life.

Hang in there honey !!!

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51 Ms Batman 04.01.08 at 10:32 am

I don’t even remember how I found your blog, and I’ve only lurked here, but wanted to send some encouragement and hugs and good vibes your way. And as for what I’m grateful for today? I’m grateful it didn’t rain so much last night as to bring the flood waters back, and I’m grateful we have 36 hours before the rains start in again.

Ms Batman’s last blog post..Take me out to the ball game

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52 Allison/Sissy907 04.01.08 at 11:03 am

Awe Lisa…

I am grateful for family, I am grateful for friends (both the “real” and “virtual” regaurdless if we have ever met or not, you are on that list), I am grateful for being able to plant flowers and the feeling that gives me, I am grateful for my animals and the love they share with me -even when they pee on the floor-, I am grateful for chocolate cake!, I am grateful for a divine glass of bubbly, I am grateful for the one piece of dark chocolate I eat before going to bed, I am grateful for the days when my kids wear me down til I am ready to cry, I am grateful for all things great and small everyday,
and most of all,
I am grateful for all the lessons you have taught me, again, over the last year-ish. I was taught many of these lessons when I was much younger and my mother had cancer, and I was reminded when my grandmother had cancer, and again when my grandfather “got” cancer, and again when my aunt “got” cancer, and again when my grandfather and then grandmother each passed away from their cancers… And most recently when my favorite aunt was lost to cancer last summer…
Apparently I have not been listening to those lessons or taking full advantage of all that I have everyday.
One day I came across your blog and you opened up to us about your cancer, and I was struck by a young beautiful mother fighting for her life and her family. Knowing full well my chances of getting breast cancer are sky high and ignoring all that I should be doing to catch it or prevent it from happening to me, you have made me re-evaluate my stupidity, my gifts, my loves and my life. I have made plenty of changes to everything trying to make life a little easier and more fun. I havent gotten off my butt to take care of my yearly mammogram… for YEARS. I am going to make that call today. Because you have taught me that above and beyond everything else in this world the people in your life deserve to have you fight for them.

I have said it before, but if you need anything or just want to talk and cry I am hear and have no problem listening. I can only hope that you hearing all these many people tell you how much you mean to them will help you along the way. Even when your at your lowest, there is always someone to lift you up and help you carry on, let all of us help you. Continue to put your burdons and frustrations out there for us to read. Its a great way to get some of that off your chest and let others know you need a boost. That is what we are here for.

We all love you and hope and pray you will make it thru this just fine. Sending heaps of good thoughts and vibes your way. And if you run out.. Blog you need more!!

Totally here for you, day or night,
Allison

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53 Sabrina 04.01.08 at 12:09 pm

Lisa, I am very new to your blog, but I just wanted to send a big cyber hug your way. I am so sorry! We are all here and thinking of you always!!! Much Love to you!

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54 green3 04.01.08 at 12:19 pm

First time visitor, thanks to Because I Said So. We are all out here thinking of you.

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55 Akshita 04.01.08 at 12:21 pm

I came upon your blog by accident just today. I haven’t read any of your previous posts. I wish with all my heart that you can fight it once again. Be strong and believe that you can get through it. If nothing else, it will make it a little easier.
I am greatful that I accidentally stopped by your blog today. Being able to lend a few words of support really does mean a lot to me.
Hope you get well really soon.

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56 annie 04.01.08 at 12:51 pm

I’m grateful to know you.

I’m grateful just for today, because we don’t always know what tomorrow brings.

annie’s last blog post..The Mirror Has Two Faces

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57 Kentucky Girl 04.01.08 at 1:24 pm

Oh fuck that. I’m grateful that you’re going to kick cancer’s ass again and then back over it with your car and then run it through the garbage disposal so we can go somewhere and drink fruity frozen drinks on the beach.

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58 ocb 04.01.08 at 1:27 pm

You know, every day I look at my feeds. Almost every day I see an update from you. For the last few weeks every time I click on your feed I take a deep breath because I never knew what was going to be said.

Today I am grateful for my bracelet you made for me some time ago during your last battle. I wear it often and will continue to.

You will be ok. You have the strength to kick this in the ass once and for all.

Besides, there is cheesecake to be eaten!

Love you girl.

ocb’s last blog post..Happy Easter, Easter Bunny!

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59 The Other Lisa 04.01.08 at 1:40 pm

Christ on a cracker, Lisa. I am so damn sorry that you have to go through this again……

What am I thankful for? Other than the obvious, like my hubby and the cats…there’s the internet, through which I’ve managed to find some wonderful people that are willing to share their everyday lives with people. I’ve made some wonderful friends…hell, I met my husband online, too!

The Other Lisa’s last blog post..We Like Brownies.

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60 J. 04.01.08 at 1:50 pm

OMG babe. WTF???
But you know what? You’re a strong chick.
Buck up, sweetie.
Want some cheesecake?
I luff you, y’know.

I remember, when my Crohns was really bad, saying to a friend “I wonder how many times I can get kicked in the ass before I don’t get back up again”. So I kind of know where you’re coming from.

Kind of.

*hugs*

J.’s last blog post..Whine, Whine, WINE!!!

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61 J. 04.01.08 at 1:51 pm

oh… and I am grateful for my daughter.

J.’s last blog post..Whine, Whine, WINE!!!

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62 AuntieRob 04.01.08 at 3:04 pm

I am thankful for you my friend, good mood, bad mood, happy, bitchy, whatever you put out there for us to read. It does not matter to me if it is a negative feeling or how pissed off you are, I love you. Because you took the time to reach out to me, a complete stranger,I know what you are truly made of and how huge your heart is my friend.

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63 Miss Ann Thrope 04.01.08 at 3:54 pm

I am blessed to know you and for that I’m grateful.

Remember what I wrote you about? Is it ok if I do it for you specifically? (disney land rocks)

Miss Ann Thrope’s last blog post..Ow, my pinkie

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64 AmyD 04.01.08 at 3:56 pm

I am grateful for posts like this that teach me to appreciate all I have instead of whining and complaining about things that really don’t matter.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

AmyD’s last blog post..*evil laugh*

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65 *pixie* 04.01.08 at 4:07 pm

I’m so sorry…

I’m grateful for bloggers. We are an amazing bunch.

*pixie*’s last blog post..I’d rather stay home

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66 Penelope 04.01.08 at 4:09 pm

I’m de-lurking. (Just when I thought I had de-lurked everywhere!)
I first read this at 6.30am my time, it’s now 9pm my time and I have thought about you all day. (Isn’t that the amazing this about blogging?) I still don’t have a single helpful thing to say.
I wish you everything that you need to get through this.
I wish your friends the strength they need to get you through this.
I wish your family all the love and support they need.
I wish there was something I could do.
Oh and I’m grateful for wine, always wine!

Penelope’s last blog post..Make mine a double.

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67 Lisa 04.01.08 at 4:11 pm

diz, That’s the beauty about leaving the twenties behind…all of a sudden things start making sense and life starts to have purpose. Enjoy your thirties because I thought they were the best years. You’ll still be young enough to have a fuckton of fun, yet mature enough to know what you want.

Bio, The bond between sisters is an amazing thing. I’m grateful for my baby sister.

I hope I am as strong as you think I am. I am going to lean on everyone like there is no tomorrow and live for today.

This Mom, I feel the same about family after all mine has been through the past year so I understand where you are coming from.

Yes, the blogging world has completely amazed me with their support. I feel blessed today. I certainly appreciate the prayers and hope that God is listening.

Poppy, I keep asking Dude if this is an April Fool’s joke and he keeps telling me that it isn’t. I wish I could say that it is :(

I’d be the most hated blogger in the world…could you imagine? Oh My!

Carol Anne, A good night’s sleep is something I’m craving so badly right now. You don’t have to have anything brilliant or funny to say…the fact that you will light a candle means more than anything…actions speak louder than words.

By the way…I have two bracelets I want to send you! E-mail me your address.

Jen, Thank you so much **hugs**

DaDuck I’m doing my best to keep my chin up and I certainly appreciate the ass kicking vibes. I’m going to need those.

Gina, First of all, it’s nice to meet you. Secondly, don’t ever feel that your tough moment isn’t important because someone else has it rougher. We all have our own level of what’s important based on our life experiences. I understand what you mean though because I do the same thing.

Thank you for you good thoughts and prayers…I truly appreciate them.

LC, I’m grateful for all of the awesome friends in my life too.

I hope I can kick this cancer’s ass…that’s my goal!

Ms Batman, Thank you for coming out of lurkdom to send me good vibes, encouragement and hugs…**hugs**

I imagine from your comments that you are in a flood zone or have been flooded out…so I’m grateful that it’s not going to rain for the next 36 hours either.

Allison, I’m so sorry you have lost so many people in your life to cancer. I understand what it’s like not to re-evaluate your life after all of that…I’ve done the same exact thing. We aren’t perfect human beings.

The support that I have experienced in the past 24 hours has uplifted me and brought me to tears. I’m amazed by the kindness of the Internet.

Thank you for your kind words, they are so appreciated.

Sabrina, I apologize that things aren’t as cheery or as witty as I would like them to be for someone new reading :( however I’m grateful you took the time to send your good thoughts.

green3, Welcome and like I said to Sabrina…thank you so much.

Akshita, Thank you for taking the time to offer words of encouragement and support. I’m grateful that you landed here by accident because I need all the support I can get right now.

annie, I couldn’t have said that any better…I’m writing that down and keeping it with me, thank you so much.

KG, That’s just classic! That’s going in my book along with annie’s comment. I want frozen margaritas when we get to the beach, k?

ocb, I’m so sorry that I’m like the feed of doom :(

Please continue to wear that bracelet and shove it people’s faces…tell them it’s for OVARIAN CANCER!

I plan on kicking some cancer ass once and for all.

The Other Lisa, I’m grateful for the wonderful people I’ve met online as well. I’d like to sell my husband on the Internet some days…

J, Yes, that’s exactly how I feel every other 15 minutes…how many times can I get kicked in the ass? You are right, I am strong.

Yes, send cheesecake, Peanut M&Ms, and I want some Florida oranges.

Oh, you aren’t in Florida…

AuntieRob, Thank you…I love you too. You are so awesome, you know that?

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68 Lisa 04.01.08 at 4:20 pm

Miss Ann, In all sincerity, from the bottom of my heart, I feel the same.

Are you talking about the thing you showed me? You’ll make me cry ya know.

AmyD, I tell everyone that we all have our own level of what matters to us. I know that someone out there has it 10 times worse than I do so I’m not complaining today.

Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.

pixie, You’ve got that right. I’ve seen in the past 24 hours how wonderful bloggers are and I’m blown away.

Penelope, Thank you for de-lurking…I’m just sorry it took this for you to do it. I sometimes think about a blogger when I’m offline too depending on the circumstances. Thank you also for all of your wishes…I hope they all come true.

I’m always grateful for wine as well.

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69 PandoraWilde 04.01.08 at 4:45 pm

I’m lighting a candle for you, Lisa ~hugs~ and I’m grateful for people who don’t make fun of me for watching cartoons and who understand that Cheezy Poofs and peanut M&Ms are both food groups–the FDA just fucked up by not putting them in their proper place on the nutritional pyramid.

I’m also grateful for cats with hair so long that I have to use a lint roller on my FACE to get all the fucking fur off after a headbutt and nose kiss.

I’m also grateful for “The Low Spark of High Heeled Boys” and a certain blogger who helped me replace my copy after my scuzzy roommate sold all my best CDs for money to get drunk on.

If there’s anything you need (and remember–if I can make it scented I can usually make it unscented too) just let me know, ok?

PandoraWilde’s last blog post..And the Award Goes To…

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70 melodyann 04.01.08 at 4:51 pm

Oh, wow. I am so sorry. What am I grateful for? That there are brave, wonderful people like you in this world, that make it a good place to be sometimes. I don’t know you. You don’t know me. But I will say a prayer for you every single day, starting now. And I haven’t prayed since I lost my mother, 18 years ago. Everybody says the “if there’s anything I can do” thing. I will say this: “If there’s anything you need to scream, that I can listen to? If there’s anyone you need to curse, that I can curse with you? I’m your girl.” You send me an email and I will send you my phone number, and you can scream and curse in my ear for hours, if you need to.

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71 Allison/Sissy907 04.01.08 at 5:14 pm

Oh and, Im in florida.. I will send oranges with your gnomes since Im a lame ass and cant get to the post office for nothing.. I will for sure.. get you oranges and gnomes ASAP. No more excuses!

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72 usedtobeme 04.01.08 at 5:23 pm

ATTENTION anyone who is anyone: Miss Ann is holding a raffel. Read This Post!

This collective effort by all of us who care will send Lisa & family to Disneyland!

Please go check it out and give what you can give. Even if it is a quarter.

usedtobeme’s last blog post..Pubic Service Announcement

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73 Avitable 04.01.08 at 5:25 pm

I’d love to donate to something like that, but Miss Ann is as chickenshit as Dooce, and she’s blocked me from visiting and commenting on her blog. Sorry Lisa.

Avitable’s last blog post..A Unicorn is Born

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74 usedtobeme 04.01.08 at 5:34 pm

Jesus Christ. Can we be grown up for five fucking minutes?

Donate to me then: wtfroflmfao@gmail.com

I’ll forward it.

That applies to anyone who cannot/will not go there.

usedtobeme’s last blog post..Pubic Service Announcement

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75 Miss Ann Thrope 04.01.08 at 5:37 pm

Nobody is banned from my blog.

Miss Ann Thrope’s last blog post..Read this post right now!  But not in a feed reader because it’s UPDATED

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76 Jessica 04.01.08 at 5:37 pm

Dear Lisa,
I came upon your blog via your comment at dooce.com.
My comment is the one below yours.

I am grateful for today. I am grateful for my second chance. I am grateful for my decaf hazelnut coffee from Dunkin Donuts and for the fog in my yard that is still covered in three feet of snow.

I am grateful that I still have a few friends who “get” me.

edit: Oh, and I get why you feel the way you do about those images and about all of us who found them “peaceful”blah blah followers…they are not in your shoes.

Jessica

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77 Frankie 04.01.08 at 5:53 pm

Lisa I wish I could take your pain away at this moment. I may not have great words of wisdom like some have posted but I agree with all of them. You have great friends who care about you and will keep you and your family in their thoughts.

I am grateful for the hundreds of stary skies on moon lit nights I have gotten to see. The hundreds of sunny days I have gotten to enjoy. The hundreds of beers I have enjoyed with my friends on those days.

Frankie’s last blog post..Todays Tweets 2008-03-31

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78 Erin 04.01.08 at 6:08 pm

Gosh, I am speechless, but not as a bad thing but because I want to say all of these encouraging things to you and I don’t know where to start. I won’t say I’m sorry, because I’m sure you have heard that – all I can say is that you WILL beat this!!

Here is what I’m grateful for – I am grateful for reality television. I know it sounds stupid but it is my time to laugh at someone else’s life for a change :)

Please know that my thoughts are with you!

Erin’s last blog post..Stupid Is as Stupid Does

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79 GirlintheCrosswalk 04.01.08 at 6:15 pm

It’s not allowwwwwwwwwed to come back again. No. It’s not. That dumb mother fucker. How dare it. That shit is fucked up. Where does f-ing ass-eyes canSer get the fancy notion that it can just show back up whenever the hell it feels like?! Wtf?! Stick your foot up its ass, girl! You can do this. You can do it.

GirlintheCrosswalk’s last blog post..Fucking having a beer.

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80 caspar 04.01.08 at 6:19 pm

I am here via usedtobeme.

I am grateful for each second we have, although i have a really shitty way of showing it. everything worth anything is so fragile, too fragile to really think about often.

miracles happen sometimes and if that is what it takes, then that is what it will be. try to find the way back to you when you can. those who know you and love you do so because of only that.

caspar’s last blog post..McCain/Althouse – ‘08

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81 Zombie Mom 04.01.08 at 6:22 pm

Big Lurker who has followed you all over with your many bloggie incarnations. I am so sorry and keep my fingers crossed you responsive to treatments and in am manner that has a little discomfort as possible. Huge hugs to you, dude and your kids.

I am grateful for pretty much everything. I have two beautiful kids through the blessing that is foster to adoption, a husband and a marriage that has survived turbulent times and strife, a family I adore and wonderful friends from RL and the blogsphere. To top it all off, I have work that I love and gives meaning and sustenance to my life.

My thoughts are withyou

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82 Karl 04.01.08 at 6:26 pm

Shit, Lisa. Very sorry to hear this. I’m just meeting you and everything. Never a need to apologize, in my opinion. This is your space, this is where you share anything and everything happening in your life.

As for me being thankful…I’m thankful at the moment for Hawaiian pizza. And that I might get to meet you at TequilaCon.

Karl’s last blog post..Happy Birthday, Mom, Alyson, and Ashley

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83 Avitable 04.01.08 at 6:53 pm

Sorry about putting this in your comments, Lisa, but since Miss Ann banned me (a ban that has magically disappeared since I wrote that comment), I had no avenue to mention that I couldn’t donate.

Avitable’s last blog post..A Unicorn is Born

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84 Lisa 04.01.08 at 8:02 pm

Pandora, I love you for making me laugh with every comment you leave. I’m grateful for that.

Thank you for thinking enough of me to light a candle.

melodyann, I’m honored and deeply humbled that you would say a prayer for me after not being able to pray for 18 years. If you are able to find the strength to do that, then I can find the strength to fight. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I’m sorry that you lost your mom…so very sorry. I don’t want my little girls to go through that.

I can always use a good cursing partner. You should really read the post previous to this one.

Allison, LOL you don’t have to send oranges and don’t worry about the gnomes ;)

UTBM, I am overwhelmed by the kindness of all of you. Totally overwhelmed.

Avitable, I love you. I love Miss Ann. I mean that with the most sincerity…you know I don’t bullshit. Please, for one day could we put the gauntlet down and I don’t mean put it down for donations…I don’t mean that at all. I mean just let it be. It would mean the world to me.

Miss Ann, What you are doing is one of the kindest things anyone has ever done for my family. I want to spend time in a happy place with my daughters in case something happens…I want them to have a happy memory to hold on to for the rest of their lives.

Jessica, Thank for taking the time to stop by, comment and express your gratitude. I appreciate that you understand my point of view on those pictures.

Did you mention Hazelnut coffee…from Dunkin Donuts??? YUM.

Frankie, You don’t need great words of wisdom…you took time to express your gratitude and remind me of the wonderful stars in the sky that I love to look at late at night…when it’s quiet and peaceful. Ahhh, when I can take a deep breath.

What more wisdom could you offer than that?

And beer…

Erin, I hope I can beat this…keep your faith that I will.

I’m with you…I’m grateful that Hell’s Kitchen starts tonight and American Idol is on right after. I’m grateful that Top Chef is on Wednesday nights. Yes, I like reality T.V.

Girl, I know, for real, I totally agree with…the mother fucker. I need your anger right now to kick some canSer azz!

That’s a Girl!

caspar, Thanks for stopping by…I’m also grateful for each second. I, too sometimes have a really shitty way of showing my gratitude which is why I opened the comments up for everyone to express theirs. Sometimes we just don’t think about the little things we are grateful for and we need to pause for a moment.

Zombie Mom, I’m glad that you de-lurked and I’m amazed that you have followed my insane travel from domain to domain. Much respect to you for that ;)

That’s awesome that you were able to be a foster parent and then adopt…that’s so awesome. It sounds like you have a wonderful like and lots of blessings to be grateful for.

Karl, I feel like I have to apologize when I’m delivering bad news on top of bad news. It makes me feel so glum.

Ahhhh, Hawaiian pizza…OMG YUMMY. I’m going to be at TequiliaCon come hell or high water. I know someone else who is going and she lives very, very close to me. If I can’t drive maybe I can beg her for a ride.

I hope I get to meet you and a bunch of other wonderful bloggers.

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85 stephanie 04.01.08 at 8:37 pm

Lisa,

I’m so so sorry that you are going through this again. But, from what I know of you, through this blog, I will say with utmost confidence – you are going to kick cancer’s ASS! AGAIN! Because you HAVE to.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong. You will come through this. You will.

G-d bless you.

Stephanie

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86 cupcake 04.01.08 at 9:02 pm

I’ll dispense with how sorry I am, because surely you know we all are.

Here is what I’m grateful for: David Letterman’s Top Ten Lists and my continued faith, despite all the crapness.

cupcake’s last blog post..Coal in my stocking

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87 Shelly 04.01.08 at 9:06 pm

I came here via UTBM. Wow. I don’t even know you and i feel like someone just punched me in the stomach. I am so sorry that you have to endure this yet a third time. Please know that a lot of people will be praying for you.

I am very thankful that I got to wake up this morning and see the faces of my children once more. I am thankful that I made it home to put them to bed and kiss them goodnight.I am thankful that my husband returned home safely from work this morning. (he is a firefighter)
I am thankful for each and every day as it could be my last.
Be strong.

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88 Tracy Lynn 04.01.08 at 9:32 pm

Here via Hilly and Twitter.

I am grateful that I have people who care about me. And I want you to know that you are in my prayers, you and your family.

I know what it is like, to be sick, and to fight. Take care of yourself. :neutral:

Tracy Lynn’s last blog post..Post 684: My Team Of Terrorist Goat Taking Cohorts

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89 Kizz 04.01.08 at 9:39 pm

Have you tried the dark chocolate peanut m&ms? Divine!

I am grateful for my dog. She loves me like nobody else, she never wavers.

Kizz’s last blog post..You Freaking Pansy

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90 Fogspinner 04.01.08 at 10:01 pm

The last few months have been a trial for so many of us. Keep your chin up.

Today I’m thankful for a the sunshine. Oh and goats. ;-) Goats have the power to force me out of bed on the darkest days. Black licorice. Close third. Maybe even a tie. I might get out of bed for black licorice.

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91 saintseester 04.01.08 at 10:02 pm

I am grateful that I was able to watch my son play baseball tonight,and to cuddle under a warm blanket in the cold air with my daughter.

saintseester’s last blog post..Touching Greatness

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92 cbh 04.01.08 at 10:28 pm

I am grateful that it is spring and things are blooming…it reminds us that there is a rebirth even after the coldest and darkest of times.

I came here via Tense Teacher and although I don’t know you, I want you to know that just like all the other blog love you have recently received, I too will be thinking of you and your family. I hope that you will continue to blog when you feel up to it and use this as a forum for bitching when times are hard and rejoicing when you feel good all the while knowing there is a community of bloggers here to support you.

cbh’s last blog post..World Autism Awareness Day and CNN

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93 Geeky Tai-Tai 04.01.08 at 10:28 pm

Lisa, I am grateful for many, many things… the most profound gifts are my husband and sons. I am grateful that we’ve been open-minded to new ideas and experiences. We have always seized opportunities as they arose, and by doing that, we have been blessed with the most wonderful friends. Forever kinds of friends. They may be scattered all around the globe, but with the internet we can still stay connected with each other.

If we had not taken the risk to move to Singapore, I probably would not have started a blog and met you or any of my other blogging friends. I’m grateful that you’re a kick-ass kind of woman, and that we’ll get to meet in real life very soon! *hugs*

Geeky Tai-Tai’s last blog post..High Anxiety

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94 Lisa 04.01.08 at 11:53 pm

Lisa,

I am grateful for the love that is in my life. The world is a lonely place without love and I am blessed with a lot of it from my family and friends.

I am grateful to have enough of everything we need right now.

I found your blog through Hilly’s shared items and this is the first entry I’ve read. I’m sorry you have to go through this! You sound like an incredibly strong woman.

Lisa’s last blog post..Passport to Liver Failure!

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95 Maggie 04.01.08 at 11:56 pm

I’m so sorry that this has happened. Again.

I’m grateful for my family and for Usedtobeme sending me over here.

You’re definitely in my thoughts and prayers.

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96 That Bitchy Chick 04.02.08 at 1:18 am

I’m grateful for tulips. They’re bright, cheery and they make me smile every single time I see a big bunch of them. If I could, I’d send you a big huge bouquet of them right now. My prayers are with you and I really believe in the power of prayer, faith and miracles! *BIG HUGS*

That Bitchy Chick’s last blog post..A little helpful info from me to you

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97 angel 04.02.08 at 1:47 am

“usedtobeme” sent me… and unusually for me i am truly speechless!

right, lets do this. one thing.
today i am grateful for SO many things- but the one i am moist grateful for is that my son, 3 days short of 17, still whispers a sleepy “i love you” when i leave for work and say goodbye to him in the morning. he’s on holiday right now so he’s sleeping late…

strongs girl. i wish i could say more.

angel’s last blog post..Is It Odd…

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98 angel 04.02.08 at 1:48 am

oops… that shoulda been “most” grateful for!

angel’s last blog post..Is It Odd…

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99 GeekMommy 04.02.08 at 2:19 am

Twitter friends brought me here… and I’m so happy they did.
Not because I’m happy to read your post and the gut-wrenching news you had to share – but because I’m happy to read the comments and to see just how strong and beautiful a community of women on the internet can be.

You’ve done this before, so you’ll know what I mean when I say “I’m thankful for every minute, every breath, every smile from my daughter, every laugh from a friend, every unexpected cold pet nose in an unprotected spot, every tear, every adrenaline surge, every everything that I’ve had since the first time I was told I might not get to have any of those ever again.”
Every day, every minute, every second is one I almost didn’t have… and they’re all gorgeous.

((hug))

GeekMommy’s last blog post..What is Twitter’s Maximum Density?

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100 Mishka 04.02.08 at 3:07 am

Came here from Chatty’s site…didn’t expect this as a first post to read, but wow, what a doosy (or is that doosie?). So I guess I don’t qualify as a blogging friend (yet) but I would like to say I am so sorry for your bad news and from the list of comments you have here, it looks like you have a great support system. Wishing good thoughts you way.

Mishka’s last blog post..What Was the IOC Thinking?

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101 Sheila 04.02.08 at 3:22 am

I am grateful for new shoes and the perfect weather for Sunday drives with the convertible top down.

Remember that you have a huge support system right here. Use it as much or as little as you want.

Sheila’s last blog post..Oh yeah, its a Bulleted post? get over it.

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102 kapgar 04.02.08 at 7:31 am

I’m happy knowing that cancer can be beat as my father in law and one of his sisters have done so. And I’m hoping for the same for you even though we’ve never met before. Nobody deserves this. Especially not three times.

Oh, and if you like peanut M&Ms, might I suggest the cool new Indiana Jones ones? They’re pretty sweet with their Indy-themed icons printed on them. :mrgreen:

kapgar’s last blog post..There is no other place I’d rather be…

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103 Musing 04.02.08 at 8:16 am

Hello, I found you through KarenSugarPants and wanted to say my heart goes out to you.

Someone I care deeply for is battling lung cancer. It’s been a hard journey but one also filled with much love and support.

I’m glad to see so many here putting their arms around you. Good friends are truly priceless.

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104 Mattie 04.02.08 at 8:18 am

I am ashamed of myself as I sit here after reading your story. I came here via Karen Sugarpants.

I have been feeling sorry for myself for a while now and you have inspired me to turn that around and begin counting the things I should be grateful for in my own life.

Number one on that list is that I am grateful to you for writing about something so personal, devastating, and yet you are able to be strong and positive.

I will say a prayer for you in my own non-religious way daily.

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105 Dawn @ Coming to a Nursery Near You 04.02.08 at 8:29 am

I LOVE peanut m&ms. Hell, I love any kind of M&Ms. Ok, chocolate in general? LOVE chocolate. Yah. Yum.

Ya know, I HATE it when I get introduced to a cool blogger by way of crappy news. But I have to say, I have NO idea how I’d handle what you are and being able to be relatively… upbeat? Come on, you’re worrying about your blog friends? That’s pretty wild.

In any case, you asked for gratitude. I’m so incredibly, unbelievably grateful for my kids’ health. Beyond that, I’m so very grateful for the blogging community that I fell into a few years ago.

I can see that you’re gonna kick cancer’s ass again, and I wish you lots & lots of M&Ms along the way.

:eek:

Dawn @ Coming to a Nursery Near You’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – Pretty edition

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106 anonymous 04.02.08 at 8:46 am

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107 golfwidow 04.02.08 at 8:47 am

I’m very grateful your name’s not Daisy Janeane, Melomane, Jane Goodwin, or Mamacita.

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108 Gina 04.02.08 at 8:56 am

I’m a first time reader, via KarenSugarPants. I’m so sorry that you are going through this. I’ll be sending good thoughts, prayers, and some more or those ass-kicking vibes your way.

I’m grateful for my kids, for the Easter chocolate that they don’t eat and I can sneak without repurcussions and for the fact that I have a found a community online where I can be myself, feel supported and say things like this: “Cancer is an asshole!”

Gina’s last blog post..Movies

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109 B 04.02.08 at 9:46 am

If I could send you some peanut M&Ms I totally would! Just remember you have tons of friends out here in blogging land! We’ll be there whenever you need us.

B’s last blog post..Opening Day 2008

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110 whymommy 04.02.08 at 9:55 am

I’m grateful for all the fine women and moms on the internet who have been so supportive of me through my own battle, and of all the ones who are so supportive of you. It makes all the difference, doesn’t it?

Wanna know what else I’m grateful for? That on June 16 last year I wasn’t hit by a bus and killed instantly. That I was hit by cancer instead and got the opportunity to treasure these days, however many or few they may be. I mean, either way, it sucks, but at least I was able to tell my friends and family how very much I love them, and to savor the goodness. Making cookies with my kids. Walking in the park. Sitting on the swings. These are the good things in life….

Thinking of you.

whymommy’s last blog post..Truthiness

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111 Sheila 04.02.08 at 10:05 am

I’m grateful for all the connections I have made in the blogging community. Some people make fun of me when I talk about my “bloggy friends”, but they are all real people, with real lives, needs, hopes and wishes.

Although this is my first time *meeting* you, I’m sending a a big hug!

Sheila’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday: Butterfly

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112 LifeAsIKnowIt 04.02.08 at 10:25 am

I am so sorry. I’m not a regular reader, but got to your blog through someone else’s.
So sorry to hear your news.
I am grateful for this amazing blogging community that offers so much support to one another.

LifeAsIKnowIt’s last blog post..Going Green

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113 Lala 04.02.08 at 10:31 am

Whymommy sent me although I’m just a lurker there too. I’ll buy you some M&M’s and share my Dr. Pepper with you. I’m sorry this is happening to you. It’s just fooked…..

Lala’s last blog post..# 908

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114 jenny 04.02.08 at 10:39 am

Oh, Lisa – I’m so sorry to hear this news. I just recently started reading your site and have been following your story with a lot of hope, and continue to do so. I really hope you’re feeling up to joining us May 3rd, because I’d love to meet you.

As for your request, I’m grateful for my two dearest friends who can still make me laugh until I cry, like they did last weekend when we went bra and jean shopping. We realized that we’ve known each other for almost 20 years, and that’s a gift I never take for granted.

I’m sending you all my most positive vibes!

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115 Amy 04.02.08 at 10:52 am

I’m grateful for the internet, that allows us to meet perfect strangers and get to know them so intimately, to help them with their trials and share their joys.

Hang in there.

Amy’s last blog post..I have an idea

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116 catnip 04.02.08 at 10:59 am

I’m grateful to have found your blog today, thanks to whymommy, so I could count all my blessings. Sending good thoughts.

catnip’s last blog post..life’s little irritations #2

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117 Becky 04.02.08 at 11:00 am

Hi! I found you via Table for Five who linked me to Miss Ann Thrope who then linked me to you.
I’m so sorry for you to have to share this news with us. I’m grateful the internet which is a highway to the world, chocolate, coffee, blogs and thier owners as they are the car of the internet! Of course my family as well! Without the road and the car I never would have learned that someone needs support or friendship or anything else!

Becky’s last blog post..Potty Training….

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118 msdramateacherlady 04.02.08 at 12:20 pm

I stumbled on your blog through a string of others. I just wanted to wish you well and let you know I will be sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

As for what I am thankful for…my mom’s survival from breast cancer, my wonderful husband, fabulous friends and a very loving puppy.

msdramateacherlady’s last blog post..a little of this and that

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119 Tracy 04.02.08 at 12:34 pm

I am also grateful to have found you (via Whymommy). I am always grateful when I find powerful writing by smart, honest women. I am so sorry to hear your news.

I’m grateful for the tornado siren that goes off here every noon at Wednesday to tell me that the week is exactly halfway through (to be honest, I kind of like the fact that it’s startling.) I’m grateful that my son loves plastic planets more than toy cars and that my dog stopped eating my back door with the help of powerful pharmaceuticals.

I’m grateful that you asked.

Tracy’s last blog post..Fact or fiction?

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120 Kristie 04.02.08 at 12:43 pm

I found you through “why are you stalking me”. I’m so sorry this is happening to you and your family. I can’t imagine how scary this is for all of you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

I’ll tell you what I’m grateful for…(besides the obvious…family, friends, etc.)

My dogs. Brats that they are.

Paid-off credit cards. :-)

Ketchup. Seriously. Especially in the company of potatoes.

That I’m not ashamed to be in my mid-thirties and grateful for ketchup.

That the neighbors don’t find it odd that I’m trying to surreptitiously charm their horse into loving me best.

Twizzlers. Mmmmmm. Red ones, not the black ones.

March madness, even though I currently hate the month of March more than I can say.

Thank you for sharing. I wish you everything…good health, good luck!, happiness, peace, and TIME…lots of it.

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121 schmutzie 04.02.08 at 12:48 pm

I went through a cancer-related hysterectomy last year and so know the value of gratefulness.

Today, I am grateful for hot coffee, fuzzy cats, longer days, and the incredible community that can happen on the internet.

schmutzie’s last blog post..50×365 #193: Orland

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122 Kimberly 04.02.08 at 12:59 pm

I am grateful for the fellowship of bloggers. We’re here to do anything we can to help. Prayers your way.
xo

Kimberly’s last blog post..Where To?

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123 Especially Heather 04.02.08 at 1:11 pm

I am so sorry to hear you have cancer. I too have cancer (brain) and would love to be of some emotional support to you.

One thing that I am thankful for… Every moment with my family. You dont know how precious it is until it is threatened.

I know you can relate.
-H

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124 Amelie 04.02.08 at 1:26 pm

Today I’m grateful for sunshine and nice colleagues. But also, I’m so sorry to hear your bad news. I hope you get your peanut M&Ms soon (if I send them it’ll take weeks…) and, of course, I hope for a good and successful treatment. Soon.

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125 Beth_C 04.02.08 at 1:31 pm

Came here via Toddler Planet…

I am sorry to read this news. Even though I just *met* you, I feel your pain and your anger and your sadness in your words and it makes me feel like I know you.

I am grateful for a lot of things today. Here they are in no particular order…coffee, my kids, the sun that is finally shining, the pale green leaves that are finally growing on the trees, American Idol, my friends, ranch dressing, the internets, my blog and the pedicure that I am looking forward to getting tomorrow.

I will add you to my prayer list and begin praying that you have the strength, the anger and the energy to fight this. I am also going to add you to my Bloglines because I want to keep up with your fight…because I know you will be victorious!

Beth_C’s last blog post..You don’t love me as much.

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126 Paula 04.02.08 at 1:53 pm

Lisa, I don’t know you and hadn’t seen your blog before today. I read your story from my friend Elizabeth at Table 4 Five and then went to donate at Miss Ann’s blog. I have really been touched by you, your story, and your friends supportive messages. I can see that the world needs someone like you in it.

Paula’s last blog post..Loving the Fool

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127 Amanda 04.02.08 at 2:23 pm

I am grateful for women like Whymommy for connecting us, to comment, to commiserate and to pause and be grateful.

I am grateful for the life swirling in my belly, I am grateful for being in love with my husband and our two daughters, I am grateful I can see the ground that’s been beneath snow for so long and I am grateful for peanut butter and banana sandwiches chased with organic non-fat milk at 10pm.

Blessings on you!

Amanda’s last blog post..Pain in the brass

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128 Keryn 04.02.08 at 2:40 pm

WhyMommy linked to you, so I came…I’m so sorry. Good luck and my prayers are with you.

I’m grateful for cute hats for 25%. Summer is coming!

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129 Claire Joy 04.02.08 at 2:44 pm

damn! damn! damn! damn! This is so f*cking unfair. (okay. Rant ended.) I’m here by way of my daughter-in-law, the inimitable Cajunvegan, and I’m grateful for her, her sense of humor, her love for my son (who isn’t always the most lovable guy on earth) and I’m grateful for you… your honesty and spunk, your vulnerability and humor. May this round go in your favor as did the last two. You are in my prayers. No matter what.

Claire Joy’s last blog post..truth and consequences and balance

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130 Paula 04.02.08 at 2:47 pm

I wrote you a letter …

Paula’s last blog post..Loving the Fool

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131 jane 04.02.08 at 3:25 pm

After reading your post & all these comments, I realize I am grateful for so many things. But the things I’m grateful for aren’t really “things”, but people: family, my boyfriend, friends ~ mainly blogging friends.
We don’t really know each other, but I know you believe in yourself & I join every single person here in believing with you.

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132 Bec 04.02.08 at 3:37 pm

Here via ireadbannedbooks. I am so sorry. You are in my prayers.

Bec’s last blog post..Let’s Talk About Sex

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133 Coffee in Kits 04.02.08 at 3:53 pm

Dear Lisa… I arrived at your blog via DutchBitch’s last post. My mother in law went through the same thing a couple of years ago. I don’t mean to say “I know what you’re going through” because I don’t. All I can say is stay strong, have faith and NEVER give up.
Sending lots of love you way….
CiK

Coffee in Kits’s last blog post..That Feeling

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134 Linda~ 04.02.08 at 3:54 pm

My husband…for putting up with me.
My daughter…for also being my friend.
My son-in-law…who puts up with me and my daughter.
My grandchildren…Duh!
My son and his girlfriend…even though they need to move out.
My heart…so I can love.
My eyes…so I can see the beauty in the world.
My ears…to hear the music.
The internet…to bring some of us, in such a big world, a little closer.

God bless. My prayers are with you and your family.

Linda~

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135 a 04.02.08 at 4:35 pm

Dear Lisa,

I came to you by way of lovely Amy at My Skepsi.com.

I am grateful for God’s strength, when mine is not enough.

I am grateful that you have support.

I am sending much hope to you.

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136 Betsy 04.02.08 at 6:01 pm

Tense Teacher linked to you.

I am thankful that I can poop out of my ass. I lived with a colostomy bag for about 9 months, and every time I drop a load, I say a little prayer of thanks.

Not the most conventional thing to be grateful for, but if you had to poop in a bag for almost a year, you’d understand. And I hope you were able to chuckle, or at least smile.

Thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones.

Betsy’s last blog post..For Your Viewing Pleasure

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137 Holly 04.02.08 at 6:10 pm

I don’t know you, I’ve never visited your site before, but I was directed here by a link on someone elses blog and just wanted to add my voice to the many other comments wishing you well during this extremely difficult time.

Holly’s last blog post..South Pacific

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138 Kelly 04.02.08 at 7:58 pm

Hi

I also don’t know you or have visited your site before but I am going to do as you asked (and add you to my bloglines).

Today, I am grateful for my Grandma. She is always there for me and supports me in every way. I love her to bits.

I have more if you wanna hear them? Just email me if you do :)

Kelly’s last blog post..Exhausted

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139 Chad L. 04.02.08 at 8:00 pm

I’m grateful for the people I’ve met online who have taught me something. I hope I can do the same.

Chad L.’s last blog post..Widgets Widgets Widgets

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140 Ree 04.02.08 at 8:01 pm

I am grateful that I have a community of bloggers with which to share my pain and joys, and that I can help others through their own pain.

Tell us what you need. We’ll be there, somehow, someway, for you.

Ree’s last blog post..I Am the Great and Powerful Ree

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141 Tonz 04.02.08 at 8:19 pm

This made me cry. I’m soooo sorry. I followed a link off another blog and this is the first time I’ve been here but I just wanted to give my support and positive thoughts.

I am thankful for my family and my little niece who was born 2 months ago tomorrow. She is beautiful!!

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142 HeatherK 04.02.08 at 8:22 pm

Came here through Susan….

*hugs* Gratitude. Yes, we all need a reminder. I’m loving that my little boy is learning to give sloppy open mouth kisses. And only to me!

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143 Shelli 04.02.08 at 8:45 pm

I’m sorry. I am here via Mr. Fabulous. I am grateful for my granddaughter and her beautiful laughter.

Shelli’s last blog post..God Has a Funny Sense of Humor

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144 Lisa 04.02.08 at 8:54 pm

Friends, I have read each and every single comment. I always respond to everyone however this evening I’m just exhausted. I don’t want you to feel that I don’t value your support, kindness and expressions of gratitude because I do…I’m touched by all of you.

I’m printing out everyone’s comments and putting them in a book so that when the internet can’t be with me…your reminders of gratitude can.

Thank you friends.

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145 Becki 04.02.08 at 9:16 pm

I’m grateful for the Internet, which allowed me to find your blog and care about you and wish you well.

Becki’s last blog post..The Importance of Being Disciplined

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146 Stimey 04.02.08 at 10:18 pm

I’m here from WhyMommy. I’m so (I do it too) sorry that you’re going through this again.

I’m grateful for laughter.

Thinking of you…

Stimey’s last blog post..Lame.

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147 Angela 04.02.08 at 10:33 pm

Visiting from a link on ToddlerPlanet and wishing you strength and joy in these tough times. I’ve got two things from the top of my head tonight for you that I’m grateful for.

I’m grateful for my 2 year old son, the one we never, in the 11 years of trying, thought we’d ever be able to have. Miracles do happen, they happen everyday. May you be granted another one (I haven’t read into your blog far yet, but it sounds like you’ve already had at least two! And there is no limit!)

I’m also grateful for the wonderful community of bloggers and my google reader, which you’re now linked into. The connectedness I feel, even when I don’t “know” all these people, is incredible. I truly think that the blogosphere is making our world a smaller and better place. I might not be able to invite the world into my kitchen to chat, but I can invite them into my blog and visit theirs and see how much we have in common and can learn from each other.

Angela’s last blog post..I do NOT believe this!

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148 DrPezz 04.03.08 at 12:02 am

I stumbled upon your post and I thought I’d add these things that make me smile:

my family
my pets (3 cats and a dog–all snugglers)
Reeses Peanut Butter Cups
the moon on a clear night
cartoons
Monty Python movies

Good luck and keep up the fight!

DrPezz’s last blog post..This Onion Made My Eyes Water

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149 Fantasy Writer Guy 04.03.08 at 12:18 am

Did I ever pick the right moment to discover your blog.

I’m grateful for my miraculous existence, for my excellent friends, for the human capacity (however squandered) to defeat the grim bindings of survival instinct into states of peace and loving kindness and for those rare champions among us who are forging the path for our evolution to come.

And I’d be grateful if Cancer would too evolve and leave you and all of us alone. I just today came from the funeral of one cancer victim and two days ago learned of the terminal brain cancer that has taken all but the last breath of the mother of my beautiful friend.

Much love to you, my human sister.

Fantasy Writer Guy’s last blog post..Close Encounters of the Steve-o Kind

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150 Aargh 04.03.08 at 12:20 am

Life is so unfair. My thoughts are with you.

I am grateful to have a good life and for my best friend, my dog Tara. Even when I have had a horrible day I take one look at her and she makes my day.

Aargh’s last blog post..The Cast – Day 1

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151 Peggy 04.03.08 at 12:32 am

I’m thankful for the big white puffy clouds that were in the sky today.

(Thinking of you!)

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152 Dawn 04.03.08 at 1:06 am

I came over from Tense Teacher. I am so sorry for your situation. I am thankful for my health and my family. We got new drums, we are storing for the church and the kids can use them. I am thankful for that opportunity. It is tough to tell you why I am thankful when I feel so bad for you and I have never even visited your blog before.

Dawn’s last blog post..The Beat

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153 Jo 04.03.08 at 1:46 am

I’m sure you’ve heard a few “I know how you feel” replies but I can honestly say that I do. You see, I’m a mama living with cancer that has spread as well. I know the fear, the hurt, and how pissed off you must be that once AGAIN you have to fight this bitch called cancer.

Thanks to a genetic screw up (MEN2a) I’ve had two seperate forms of cancer so far- one a rare form of thyroid cancer (Medullary) that had taken over my entire neck and collarbones and another that took both of my adrenal glands. After that I also found out that my two oldest children also had MEN2a and the thyroid cancer. 2004-2005 was a real bitch as I’m sure you can relate.

In December 2007 I found out that the thyroid cancer has already spread to my lungs, more in my neck again, and in both armpits as well as possibly my right breast. It’s scary because it wasn’t suppose to move this fast.

I guess what I’m trying to say (probably in not a great way and I’m sorry) is that I know right now you are probably feeling that tiny bit of hopelessness because doctors are turning their backs on you. I’m sure you are beyond pissed off that cancer dares to come at you a third time especially when you’ve got children. By the way you write on your blog though I have no doubt that you are strong, amazing, and will do everything possible to beat this.

I know you don’t know me but if you EVER need another cancer mama to talk to please feel free to email me. I know that sometimes it just helps to vent with someone who knows how crappy it all can be. If nothing else I’m great at making people laugh and will brighten a hard day for you. ;)

Take care and you will be in my thoughts. I hope you kick cancer’s ass again so it knows you’re too dang tough to take.

Hugz,
Jo

Jo’s last blog post..You Know You’re A Bad Blogger When….

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154 Lonneke 04.03.08 at 4:54 am

I AM speechless. I can only say I wish you all the best. I am grateful to be alive with healthy kids and husband, altough sad I lost my dad on cancer too.

You go, strong woman!

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155 Absurdist 04.03.08 at 7:07 am

I am so incredibly sorry that you are going through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Gratitude: I need this badly. My bipolar disorder is all out of whack.

I am grateful for the ability to stay in my house, even if through unorthodox means. It is the one stability that I have, and it is my home.

Please take care of yourself and know that we are here for you.

Absurdist’s last blog post..Not a funny post; sorry

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156 Rivka with a capital A 04.03.08 at 7:13 am

I have metastasized breast cancer — in my bones, liver and lungs.

When I found the cancer came back, and had metastasized, I cried for a week.

Then I got back up and started planning how to fight it.

I’m young. I’m strong. There are things I still gotta do!

So, FIGHT, baby, FIGHT!

I found Randy Pausch’s lecture to be helpful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo&feature=related

There are good drugs out there, as you know.

Metastasis is a different battle.

But life is good!!

Rivka with a capital A’s last blog post..Medical Update: No News is Good News

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157 Clairebell 04.03.08 at 7:43 am

I’m grateful for the stars in their simple beauty (simple, at least, from Earth) it’s nice to know that there are things out there bigger than me. And also, this really cool interactive map to view them, because I never paid a lick of attention in astronomy.

Clairebell’s last blog post..Days Three – Six

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158 Nanna 04.03.08 at 9:17 am

I am so thankful for my children, who have turned out to be so much more amazing individuals than I can ever take credit for – and for my grandchildren, who are tiny little miracles and little snow globes of personality.

I am profoundly grateful for the friends who love me who don’t have to.

And I’m sending every prayer and hug and embrace your way that I can.

Nanna’s last blog post..Be Yourself, or Take Your Cheap Ass Home

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159 Real Live Lesbian 04.03.08 at 9:43 am

I’ve never read you before…but don’t worry, I will now.

I’m here via Boobs, Injuries and DP…from there I went somewhere that I can win an orange afghan if I give you $10.

So here…take my $10 and take those chil’en to Florida! Enjoy and love them up!

Real Live Lesbian’s last blog post..Day 4-5: The Amazing Trek to Machu Picchu and back to La Paz

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160 wafelenbak 04.03.08 at 10:00 am

Directed here by Ms. Hilly. I’m sorry for what you are going through, and will be reading your blog regularly to keep you in my thoughts.
I am grateful for the tiny little blooms that are starting to poke their heads up in the courtyard of my apartment building. :)

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161 Robina 04.03.08 at 10:18 am

This is my first time here. I was directed via the Ann Thrope’s sites. I am so very sorry for all that you are going through. You have a wonderful way of writing and expressing yourself.

I will be sending positive energy and thoughts your way in hopes that you will get the help you need and deserve, and that everything will turn out great!

Robina’s last blog post..If I only had a brain….

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162 Angell 04.03.08 at 11:35 am

Lisa – wow. I surfed over through various links and I am SO sorry.

I’m thankful today for caffine, because two jobs kills any energy I would naturally have.

And today I’m thankful that I found your blog.

Angell’s last blog post..A Cause for Celebrating

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163 Mild Red 04.03.08 at 12:00 pm

I’m came here from Jane’s blog and my heart goes out to you.

I’m grateful that my father was able to beat colon cancer twice and I’m going to pray as hard as I can that you win this latest battle.

Stay strong and know that there are a lot of us out here pulling for you.

Mild Red’s last blog post..Down With People

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164 Sheila (Charm School Reject) 04.03.08 at 12:37 pm

I came to you through a couple of different links to another link to another link. I’ve never read your blog before so I don’t know you but my heart and prayers go out to you. Other than that, I’m still in the speechless mode.

Today, the thing I am most grateful for, as silly as it may sound, are those disposable heating pads for cramps. That and Midol. And Wellbutrin.

Sheila (Charm School Reject)’s last blog post..Just Because It’s Thursday and I Love You

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165 radioactivegirltori 04.03.08 at 1:09 pm

I came here from Hilly. I had cancer almost 3 years ago (thyroid) and am still going through testing/treatment because of some spread. I know I don’t know you, but I wanted to be here for you.

I am grateful for:

sunshine, the smell of cookies baking, good friends, love, doctors that can help and also are nice kind humans, good books, internet friends, the beach, that you are sharing your story so someone else can possibly benefit from hearing your strength, and so many other things.

If there is anything I can do to help you, please let me know. I know I don’t know you, but I feel like I want to.

radioactivegirltori’s last blog post..Gully McGullible

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166 jerrster 04.03.08 at 3:31 pm

I’m sorry to read about your battle with cancer. (got here via Hilly’s blog)

I’m grateful for the amount of time I have left with my very best friend. She has brain cancer and after surgery has lost most of her vision but she still has such a will to live and shows me everyday why I should be grateful for, what at times I seem to take for granted…but most importantly for showing me such courage in living her life as best as she can with what little time she still has.

I wish you the best Lisa.

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167 Lynda 04.03.08 at 3:36 pm

I came here from Bluepaintred, but long ago you were a tenant on my blog through BlogExplosion.

I am really sorry you are going through cancer for the third time. My sister had cancer, and two of my aunts are fighting breast cancer currently.

I am grateful that you have such a strong support network. I hope it helps you and that you beat this thing. I am wishing for the best of luck for you.

Lynda’s last blog post..Happy April Fool’s Day

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168 Göran 04.03.08 at 4:07 pm

I´m grateful for having been blessed with wonderful friends. And I am overwhelmed by all the love and warmth here! Mankind is good!! Not always fair, but good!

tries to add to the supportive energy for you ~~~~~

Göran’s last blog post..Göteborg city of ever changing weather

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169 S 04.03.08 at 4:45 pm

I found your site through Hilly (aka snackiepoo), so I’m coming a bit late to this post.

I am grateful for so many things, but to choose just one: I am grateful for my friends. I don’t know what I’d do without them.

My prayer for you is that you have friends just as good as mine who will love and support you in this difficult time.

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170 jessica 04.03.08 at 4:51 pm

I’ve never read you before, but I’m here via Hilly and karl’s sites.

I’m grateful for ten million things (namely, my health), but today the thing I’m the most grateful for is the support that the blogosphere is showing you.

“Never give up. Never ever give up.” ~Winston Churchill

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171 Gina 04.03.08 at 5:30 pm

I am grateful for the outlet that blogging gives us.

I am grateful for my cat Jasper who is and has been there when no person was within hugging distance.

I am grateful that I found your blog because it reminds me that life is bigger than me, good people exist in the world, and we all make a difference.

Gina’s last blog post..Elephants as Artists.

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172 laurie 04.03.08 at 6:32 pm

mother fucking cancer.

i had endometrial cancer in 05. even though the cancer was removed, it never left my thoughts. it’s there EVERY SECOND of my life. it’s there. always scared shitless when something aches. always wondering OMG! is it BACK?? i feel like a prisoner in my own body. mother fucking cancer.

I’m so sorry, honey. I know your heartache and I feel your pain. I wish there was something I could do or say to make you all better. :cry:

I’m grateful for tres leches cake. flan. sunshine. the wind that blows the hair on my legs because I refuse to shave! lol I’m grateful for my friends, my family, everything. I’m grateful for everything.

{{hugs}}

laurie’s last blog post..beauty survey!

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173 L 04.03.08 at 7:01 pm

I found you via Used to be Me

an I’m grateful for the fight we all have within us and the fact that our memories allow us to remember the good times over the bad and that sometimes we just need to be told there will be some one to support us whether it be emotionally or physically.

I wish you well ;)

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174 Sara 04.03.08 at 7:30 pm

Lisa,

I’m greatful for Toddler Planet, for Susan linking us to you. So I could send you this virtual hug ((((((((((((Lisa))))))))))) and tell you I’m sorry. That you’ll be in my prayers.

But most importantly, it’s going to be okay.

I don’t know what your going through, I’ve never had cancer, but it’s going to be okay, it always is. Hang in there, a lot of people love you, lots of people love you.

God be with you and Guide you.

Sara’s last blog post..Holy Heaven To Betsy

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175 Angie 04.03.08 at 7:37 pm

I am grateful for my family, for my dog, for my eyes, for my hands, for my legs…
I am grateful that I opened my eyes this morning and for all the days I have lived.
I am grateful for all the laughs and I am grateful for all the tears.
I am grateful that I can feel because I know I am alive.
I am grateful that I found your blog and for all the people here that have said so many nice things to you.
I am grateful that there is good in this world.

Thank you for sharing this, it’s my first time in your blog (got here via Miss Ann Thorpe- via Crystal).

You are going to be okay. No matter what happens, you are going to be fine.

God bless you, I don’t know if you are religious (I am not a lot, but I believe in God and this is one of those times I will actually pray).

With all my love, from Mexico.

Angie

Angie’s last blog post..Hace un momento…

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176 tiger lamb girl 04.03.08 at 7:41 pm

Seriously. Check this Italian (oncologist) doctor’s site out.
http://www.curenaturalicancro.com/
It’s not very well known by the public, but the medical establishment knows about this and the pharmaceutical companies are dying to keep it out of the public’s hands.

You’re in my prayers.
I’d totally contact him and ask him for the protocol and to help you find a doctor who will implement his method. (Have a search through his site for your type of cancer and see how each type is listed with a protocol for treatment so other doctors can use the information to HELP people).

xo

tiger lamb girl’s last blog post..Head Stuff

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177 StoneKetchup 04.03.08 at 8:17 pm

Hi.. I don’t read your blog, and I don’t even know your name, but this entry was put on Stumbleupon, and as cancer is one of my topics, I found it. My grandma recently went into remission from her breast cancer, and ever since it’s been a nerve-wracking experience when she goes to get a checkup, wondering what if, what if. My heart goes out to you, and I hope for the best outcome possible. Don’t lose heart, even if things don’t end up looking very good.. there is still so much you can do, for yourself and for the world around you.

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178 Linda Day 04.03.08 at 8:33 pm

Lisa, This is THE 1st time I have ever read anyone’s blog. Something told me to read this one. I usually don’t . You sound like a very brave girl to me. I am so sorry to hear about your cancer. I care for my Father who has lung cancer and I watch him every day fighting this. He knows I am right beside him fighting too. Just as I stayed with my Mother when she went thru it. I sincerely hope you have someone who will be with you too. I see you have some really good friends on here. I just wanted to let you know you will be in my prayers . I hope I have given you some comfort in writing this. Good Luck, Linda

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179 Basteine 04.03.08 at 8:45 pm

Hi Lisa, I have not read your blog before but ended up here through various links. I am grateful we took my daughter to disney world this february. My wife has stage iv colon cancer. Shortly after returning from our trip we learned the chemotherapy protocol she was on was not working. we have been referred to a tertiary care facility ( johns hopkins ) for a trial hopefully. Thankfully we got the trip in now although my daughter is three and a little young. I will happily donate to the auction your friends are running. Hopefully you derive the pleasure we did by such a trip. And hopefully your treatment goes well. The advances in treatment are truly astounding. I am constantly amazed at the possibilities. God Bless you and your family.

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180 Mooselet 04.03.08 at 8:48 pm

Lisa, I’m here via Miss Ann via Dave over at Blogography. Saying sorry probably doesn’t mean very much coming from a complete stranger, but here it is anyway – I am very sorry that this has happened to you. I’ll be thinking of you.

As requested, I’m grateful for my children who, even though they’re turning my hair grey and ruined my never fabulous abdominal muscles, are the reason for my continued existence. I’m grateful for our decision to move from the US to Australia 6 years ago as it’s turned out to be one of the best things that has happened to me. And I’m grateful I can still get Reeses peanut butter cups here, even if I have to pay nearly $3 for a measly 2 pack.

Mooselet’s last blog post..Photo Friday

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181 Tracy 04.03.08 at 10:28 pm

Oh Lisa. I am so sorry. I love you, girl.

The one thing I am thankful for is knowing you. You are one of the strongest bitches I know. You are always there.

I love you, girl.
*HUGS*

Tracy’s last blog post..Spring Break ?08

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182 Melanie 04.03.08 at 11:06 pm

Here via Miss Ann by way of Blogography… adding my well-wishes to everyone else’s and my hopes for a total and utter win over cancer for you.
And, if I may, a cheesy but entirely sincere cyber-hug:
(((You)))

Melanie’s last blog post..READ THIS, PLEASE

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183 Neil 04.04.08 at 12:23 am

I’m grateful for the moments of laughter and joy I had today, both with people in my real life and my virtual life. It sounds like you have a pretty good sense of humor, which goes a long way in self-healing.

Neil’s last blog post..Mommybloggers: The Next Generation

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184 Churchlady 04.04.08 at 6:40 am

I am grateful for a second chance at life, to wake up and try again and make it right each day. A second chance to make my marriage better and stronger, to give my kids a happier me and to be real with all those who love and support me. For my parents who tirelessly are there for every crisis and lift my children as they have lifted me.

I come to you through Geeky Tai Tai and I can only say that all of you have been a gift in her life and I ache along side of her with you. I wish more strength,(you obviously have tons, but can always use more) and success for you.

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185 SJ 04.04.08 at 9:08 am

I am grateful to have celebrated my 55th birthday with no sign of the cancer that took the lives of my mother and brother (for both, age 54 was a Very Bad Year). And I am grateful that my daughter, against the odds, has grown into a well-adjusted, mentally-stable young woman who is comfortable with her own sexuality (she was sexually abused at her daycare home).

I wish you the greatest of luck and blessings, Lisa.

SJ’s last blog post..10 Reasons Why My Friends Suck

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186 Erika 04.04.08 at 9:51 am

I’m grateful that you have the strength and courage to share this with us and to hopefully let us support you a little bit.

Erika’s last blog post..The Big Surprise

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187 Krystle 04.04.08 at 1:15 pm

I do not know you, and I’ve never been to your blog before today.

But I do know you deserve every single possible prayer out there.

I am grateful for the love everyone has for one another, even on this blog-universe. Everyone welcomes everyone into their lives, and for that… we are all grateful. It’s times like this when someone else like you Lisa, need people and we (bloggy neighbors) are able to give and give and give, and know that we’ll get it back in return someway, some how.

You are in my thoughts, and I am so very glad Sam mentioned your blog today.

And, your blog? Simply Amazing. I’m not going anywhere. If you see your stats growing and growing from MN or WI, I swear… I’m not stalking you. Yet! ;)

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188 Shell 04.04.08 at 4:45 pm

I am thankful for this community, and you, for sharing this with us. (hugs)

Shell’s last blog post..Random acts…

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189 Holly 04.04.08 at 5:00 pm

Hi Lisa,

I’m here from Radioactive-girl’s blog. I’m so sorry about your cancer. It seems pretty clear, though, that if anyone in the world can beat it, you can. We’re all rooting for you (with pom-poms and noisemakers and “Lisa is Awesome” banners and face paint in your team colors and the wave and giant foam “Number 1″ fingers, just for you).

I am grateful for the neighborhood cat, who meows at our back door every day just to be petted. And I sit outside in the sun and she hops onto my lap and we just enjoy the warmth and eachother’s company for a bit. I don’t know why she chose us to be friends with, but I am so glad that she did.

Holly

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190 Lisa 04.04.08 at 7:04 pm

stephanie, Thank you. Keep that confidence in me…please, because it’s my plan to kick cancer’s ass again.

I hope that you are doing well.

cupcake, Total awesomeness…The Top Ten Lists. What would we do without laughter?

Shelly, I’m grateful for people like your husband who fight fires. Especially after we had a deadly fire in our small town a few weeks ago and lost a beloved woman.

Thank you for coming over via UTBM…she rocks.

Tracy Lynn, I’m sorry you have similar experiences…but you understand the will to fight and how strong it is.

I’m extremely grateful for all of the people in the blogging community that care about me.

Kizz, I have not tried the dark chocolate M&Ms. In fact I had no idea they existed!

The loyalty of a dog…I’ve always wanted a dog but never had the time he/she deserves.

Fogspinner, Goats? My daughter just made a goat named Gertrude the other day. I used to love black licorice! And who doesn’t love the sunshine?

saintseester, Awww…those are the sweetest things to be grateful for :)

cbh, I, too, am grateful for the spring because I missed it last year. Thank you so much for your support.

Geeky Tai Tai, What a gift you have because most people aren’t risk takers like you are. It takes a strong person to move to a foreign country and I admire you for that. I can’t wait to see you in Philadelphia!

Lisa, You are so right, without love we would be so lonely. We have to have faith that the people in our life love us as well and not test them…that’s a lesson I had to learn…and I’m grateful I did!

Maggie, I’m grateful UTBM sent you here too. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.

That Bitchy Chick, Tulips are my very favorite flower in the entire universe. When I was in Holland I was in my glory seeing fields of them.

Thank you for believing…

angel, Awww, I hope that my children do the same thing at that age. What a gift.

GeekMommy, Every day, every minute, every second…things to be very grateful for. We are all on borrowed time…some of more borrowed than other.

Thanks for stopping by via Twitter.

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191 Lisa 04.04.08 at 7:44 pm

Mishka, Doosy or doosie…it’s a bitch no matter which way you look at it…LOL. Would you like to apply for blogger friendship? I think there is an official application somewhere. I’m kidding ;) I appreciate you good thoughts and that you came here via Chatty

Sheila, Ahhhh, new shoes…yay! I miss my convertible so much so I have to say I’m jealous.

I never thought I’d have such a support system, ever. I really thought everyone would run for cover. This is amazing.

kapgar, I am soooo happy to here that your father-in-law and his sister have kicked cancer’s ass. I will do the same.

No way…Indiana Jones M&Ms? Too cool!

Musing, I’m so sorry to hear that someone you love is battling lung cancer. As a care giver I think it’s harder on you than it is the patient. I hope that you have a great support system. My heart goes out to you and I hope that people are putting their arms around you as they are me. **HUGS**

Mattie, First of all you should never feel ashamed of yourself. I keep saying this but our difficulties are based on our own life experiences. I know that I’m a strong person or I wouldn’t have been handed this to deal with again. We only get what we can handle.

I appreciate a prayer…in nondenominational way. Any prayer is a good prayer.

Dawn, When I wrote this post, in all honesty, I felt horrible because the past year has been full of depression and bad news. I have felt like the blogger of doom. I had no idea that I had any number of readers left…they were all hiding in the woodworks.

It kills me to share bad news. You can ask my long time readers how many times I’ve left them not knowing what to say. I didn’t want people to feel that way this time…it would have been too much for me. Plus, we all need to think about what we are grateful for sometimes. All of you have given me great reminders of the blessings I need to count.

I’m extremely grateful for this wonderful blogging community.

golfwidow, I’m totally in the dark here. Should I be familiar with these names?

Gina, Thank you for sending good vibes…I love your ode to cancer ;)

My kids ate their chocolate too fast for me to even get a single piece!

B, Thanks. After I shared this post with Dude he said, “Oh, you want some M&Ms?” He had some stashed in a drawer so I had some Tuesday night..24 hours later.

Thank you for reminding me that I appear to have a fuckton of blogging friends….new and old and am I ever grateful.

whymommy, I’m amazed at the goodness in all of the people in the blogging community. It’s made ALL the difference.

On June 16th I was still recovering from Round 2 with cancer…I’m with you sister…I’m with you.

Sheila, I’ve tried to explain blogging friends to other people and they look at me funny. My husband understands it after three and a half years. After he saw Danalyn’s video and what’s happening at Miss Ann’s site and all over the place he really understands.

It’s nice meeting you and thanks…**Hugs**

Life, I’m amazed as well.

Lala, Did you say Dr. Pepper??? Oh how I love Dr. Pepper…

Yes, I agree. This is fooked.

jenny, I hope I’m feeling good 29 days from today. I really want to get to TequilaCon.

Like you I’m grateful for my bestest girlfriend of 32 years who I can cry, laugh and shop with.

We will see each other in Philly!!!

Amy, I couldn’t have said it better….

catnip, I’m grateful to whymommy for sending so many great people here. Thanks for your good thoughts.

Becky, What a cool way to put it ;)

Thank you fro driving over here…

msdramateacherlady, It’s awesome that your mother is a survivor. I wish her many more healthy years. Thank you for your good thoughts and prayers.

Tracy, Wow, I don’t know how I would deal with a tornado siren since I am terrified of tornados. I am terrified! But I’m grateful the sirens exist for you.

LOL @ the dog.

Kristie, Great list! I especially like the paid-off credit cards and ketchup.

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192 Melanie 04.04.08 at 7:48 pm

This is just not fair. I am so sorry you are going to have to do this fight again. You are so strong. I will keep you in my prayers.

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193 Lisa 04.04.08 at 8:27 pm

schmutzie, I went through the same thing the first time I cancer in 2004 so I totally related…and understand.

I am also grateful of a wonderful community of people on the internet.

Kimberley, I’m so very grateful to the wonderful fellowship of bloggers that I never knew existed. The kindness of people I’ve never met is astounding.

Especially Heather, Thank you…thank you. I can totally relate.

Amelie, I’m also grateful for two very awesome colleagues…well bosses. They make all the difference in the world.

Dude gave me some M&Ms on Wed…I thought it was Tues…it was Wed…after I read this post to him.

Beth_C, I love your gratitude list! I love American Idol and I’m in a pool at work. Go Brooke…only because of the pool. I want David Cook to win.

I hope I’m victorious in the fight as well!

Paula, Thank you so much in helping out with Miss Ann’s wonderful endeavor. I hope that the Big Guy sees fit that the world still has a place for me to stay in it. Wah? Did that make sense?

Amanda, I’m grateful to whymommy for connecting me to so many wonderful people. I wish you the best of luck and good health with your pregnancy. Good for you for drinking organic milk too!

Keryn, I’m going to need some hats real soon and I’m going to need that sale!

Paula, Did you send me an e-mail?

jane, Thank you, thank you for believing.

Bec, Please keep praying.

Coffee, I understand what you mean…you just saw if from another angle, like my husband’s angle…the caregiver. I’ll do my best to stay strong.

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194 Lisa 04.04.08 at 8:30 pm

To all of you…., I want to reply to each and every one of you. I mean that in all sincerity because your comments mean so much. I have been printing them and so far have 43 pages!!! They will keep me strong and remind me what to be grateful for on the days I feel weak and feel like I can’t fight.

I’m grateful for all of you! :)

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195 Sarcastic Mom 04.05.08 at 12:50 am

I’m new to your blog, but moved by your news. I’m grateful for the word “so,” keep abusing the hell out of it.

I’m grateful, as well, for the little things, and opportunities to see them. I hope you have lots of little things that fill your days and make you smile.

Sarcastic Mom’s last blog post..It’s the little things.

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196 BlondeBlogger 04.05.08 at 12:59 am

Oh, Lisa. Oh my gosh. I am sitting here trying to breathe myself and not having much luck. I am bawling my eyes out and I can barely see the screen. This just can’t be true. It just can’t. I don’t want it to be true…..

Lisa, you are NOT depressing. You are an inspiration. Your courage and strength are beyond amazing. I’ll never forget how you helped me through my little scare and all that you did for me. It must’ve been hard for you to relive that fear when you did, and I can never thank you enough for that. You are selfless, kind, loving and so brave.

I am grateful for you and your friendship, and I always will be. Now I just need to figure out who to stop crying so hard.

I love you and I’m here for you….always.

BlondeBlogger’s last blog post..Promiscuous Girl

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197 Miss Sassy 04.05.08 at 8:35 am

I’m grateful for the Blog World.
I was obsessed, then disconnected, and now completely moved.
There is more humanity between these alias names and annonimity cloaked comments than in any of the last 10 heart-to-hearts with my SISTER, and for that, I won’t even hate that I’m crying into my morning coffee.
I ADORE Disneyland, found you, for the first time, through a link to a link to send you and your family there.
Finding my paypal password as we speak – my mom died of cancer 6 weeks after being diagnosed, and you are a THREEPEATER?!?!?!?!?
I just met your story, and that one line makes me want to tell you to stay at the Grand Californian, the one who’s lobby dumps you right into California Park, for a full week. Get the AAA package and go to Catalina Island and Knott’s Berry Farm and Universal Studios while you’re at it.
Oh, and I’m grateful you reminded me life is worth living, I instantly love you and want to read your whole archive, but it’s sunny today, I simply must go enjoy it, I’ll return when it get’s cold out :o )

Miss Sassy’s last blog post..Moven On Up

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198 Judy 04.05.08 at 10:08 am

I navigated here from Citizen of the Month. I am grateful for my life in all its resplendent messiness. I am grateful this Saturday morning for the breakfast I share with my son.

For many years I have done reiki with people living with cancer and the one thing I have learned is that throughout the journey it is important to allow your body the luxury of rest. I will keep you in my prayers.

Judy’s last blog post..My Son The Sumo or Why I Need the Chiquita Banana Video

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199 Jennic 04.05.08 at 7:00 pm

I only had to go through it once and I thought that really sucked. Threepeat, unreal. Wishing you the very best in the upcoming days, months, and years.

I’m grateful to still be young enough to have acne. Oh wait, that isn’t an indication of youth? Shoot.

I’m grateful for the uninterrupted hot shower this morning.

Jennic’s last blog post..I’m on a diet

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200 that girl 04.05.08 at 7:51 pm

Why. Whywhywhywhy.

I am grateful for women who blog and support each other.

I will do anything you need. You can email or ask anything of me. shelly shuey at gmail dot com.

that girl’s last blog post..Alameda Antiques

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201 mumsie lou 04.06.08 at 6:42 am

I am grateful that I was lead to your blog and as I was reading your story the sun came out after many dreary days….could it be a sign you will again beat the nasty disease that has invaded your body.

You have an amazing attitude and I will say a prayer for you each and every day. Stay strong!!!!

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202 A Whole Lot of Nothing 04.06.08 at 10:56 am

BEST BEST BEST to you and your family.

I’m grateful for BIG squeeze hugs this morning.

A Whole Lot of Nothing’s last blog post..Weekly Winners: 3.30 – 3.5

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203 nat 04.06.08 at 12:34 pm

Oh Lisa, I am grateful for not only PEANUT M & M’s, but also plain ones! And I’m grateful for having my husband home with me, since he was out of town for 10 weeks. What I’d be more grateful for is a stunning, miraculous turn for the better for you.

Keep up the fight!

(led to you by http://www.fabulouslyjinxed.com/)

nat’s last blog post..Tuesday Tunes

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204 Redneck Mommy 04.06.08 at 3:36 pm

I’m a long time lurker and I am saddened to hear you must take up arms and do battle with Cancer once again.

But I am grateful to have found you, for you have often inspired and amused me in the dark days after my son died suddenly.

You were a sliver of sunshine in an ocean of tears and overcast clouds. And I thank you for that.

I’m grateful for the internet for providing me with such support and such rays of sunshine such as yourself.

And I am truly hope you find a ray of sunshine in your dark days to help you cope.

Wishing you strength and love…

Redneck Mommy’s last blog post..Saying Goodbye

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205 Annie 04.06.08 at 5:10 pm

First let me say I found you through Neil at Citizen of the month and next let me say I am so sorry! Your post broke my heart. 3 times is not fair! But then life is not fair is it? All I can do is send you
love and lots of hugs and wish there was something more I could do. Your focus on gratitude is lovely and because you asked I am thankful for so much, but today
I am most thankful for all my blogging friends and for
brave bloggers like you. Take care, Annie

Annie’s last blog post..Pure Magic

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206 Lisa 04.06.08 at 5:37 pm

I am absolutely amazed by all of you. I’m up to almost 50 printed pages of comments that are going into a book that I’ll be able to keep with me when I don’t have the Internet available. In sharing your gratitude with me you are reminding me what I need to be grateful for.

Thank you…thank you for reminding me of all the things there are in life to be grateful for.

Lisa’s last blog post..Stop The Drama

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207 Pamela 04.06.08 at 6:07 pm

Here from “So, A Blonde Walks Into a Blog.”
I’m first time visitor.

I pray for blessings on you, on your children, on your home, on your neighborhood.

I believe in Miracles, and I believe you are one!

Pamela’s last blog post..All Dogs Go To Heaven

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208 Miss A 04.06.08 at 7:37 pm

I’m sorry to hear about your news & I hope that you can feel my cyber prayers, but at your request:

I am grateful for beautiful day outside. It’s so gorgeous and its a beautiful gift to feel God’s love for us in the environment. Also, I am grateful for the close friends that surround me everyday and I pray that God’s love will through your friends and family you during this time.

Miss A’s last blog post..A classic student response . . .

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209 Otir 04.06.08 at 11:19 pm

Hi Lisa,

I came to see you here because I saw the news on Neilochka’s blog and felt like you needed some support, and indeed you do. I am sorry that I don’t know you and that I maybe not be able to say the things that you would need to feel like you are not letting anyone down, and of course I fully understand when you say please don’t say nothing and I want to tell you that I am grateful for something every single day.

I have exerciced myself to writing ten gratitudes a day once that I published regularly on my blog, and I haven’t done it again in a long time, but will certainly think of you each and every time I am going to do it again, in honor of your healing completely and speedily. For today I am so grateful for the laughs of my sons and their beautiful face (you can see my elder son on my latest blogpost, that’s the first time I put a video of him on my blog, that was certainly meant for offering you my gratitude).

This is also for you to listen if you wish:

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Lots of thoughts to you.

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210 becca 04.07.08 at 12:15 am

I found my way back to you through Karen(sugarpants) I am thankful for all the people I don’t know by face but through cyberspace, who really care. Who are moved to make things happen when they read your post.
You donated to me last year for a fund raiser. I never forgot your kindness, and not it is my turn.

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211 Jennifer 04.07.08 at 10:55 am

I’m so grateful for finding your powerful strength through your blog through Britt and Neil.

Jennifer’s last blog post..Things that Are Difficult to Explain to the Shorter People

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212 Alex 04.07.08 at 1:21 pm

I am grateful for the support of friends and family. It also appears that you have such a wonderful support system. I usually don’t pray, but you’ll definitely be in mine. *hugs*

Alex’s last blog post..Back Surgery!!

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213 Bethany 04.08.08 at 2:08 pm

I’m grateful for that baby smell.

For the little bows I can put in my baby girl’s hair.

For my son’s hugs (he’s 5, I know they will be soon be gone)

For the fact that my husband still stands by me and hasn’t jumped off the deep end because of my craziness. Or his craziness.

For coffee. White Mocha drinks in particular.

For girlie movies. Soothing music. And sleeping in the big bed with my entire family. Sometimes. On Saturdays for the last hour in bed.

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214 Glennia 04.08.08 at 3:13 pm

I found my way here via twitter via Karen Sugarpants…I am grateful for small graces, the ones that take us places we never thought we’d go, and the friends who go there with us. Thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope the support you get here wraps you like a warm blanket for the journey ahead.

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215 Christina 04.08.08 at 10:33 pm

Karen sent me over here, and wow.

I’m grateful for good bloggy friends, and for people like you who have the strength to let so many see your private struggles. I’m so sorry your life has taken such a sharp turn, but I’m glad you have so many good friends surrounding you with support.

Christina’s last blog post..Who Do You Trust?

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216 Lujza 04.09.08 at 12:43 am

Hi Lisa,

I found you through Tracy at “Winged Emotion”. I just wanted you to know that I’ll keep you in my prayers…

I’m so grateful for the snuggles and warm kisses I get (and give) to my 6 year old daughter…I’m grateful for the time that I have on this earth. I don’t know how long, I don’t know how short. I do know though that there is a plan for me and while I’m here….I’m grateful for it all.

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217 bermudabluez 04.09.08 at 3:59 pm

I am grateful every single day for my blogger friends. I found you through another one of them. I’m sending you strength and hugs and prayers. I am so very sorry to hear this news. You are an inspiration, lady. Hang in there! Lots of internet love is surrounding you!!

bermudabluez’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday

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218 poopie 04.09.08 at 4:15 pm

That silly Risible Girl told me to come visit you and I always mind her ;) Keep the faith, sugar ^j^

poopie’s last blog post..as the worm turns

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219 Lily 04.09.08 at 11:45 pm

I got linked here from another site. And I must admit I’ve never read your blog before.

I’ve lost both grandfathers and a great aunt who I loved very much to this terrible demon you’re not facing. They were much older than you and couldn’t fight.

You’ve already proven you’re a fighter. You must fight this. Your road is long and hard. Your battle is just beginning. All of us know this.

You’re lucky in one way, because all of us, every comment, every American, has witnessed or experienced what’s to come. We have all been touched by this. And in that you can find support and sympathy. You can find strength and love from perfect strangers.

I’m a perfect stranger, but I give my heart to you for the road ahead, and my arms are open.

You will fight this. You are so strong. We’re here for you, all of us. You will always have a shoulder to cry on, and someone to make you laugh when you really need it. You have so much support.

If you ever need to say things to someone that doesn’t matter, need to rant or cry or tell the world to go to hell, you have my email. You don’t want me to respond, that’s fine. You want to just send it and have me delete it without ever reading, just for the sake of feeling you said it, I can do that.

The kindness of the human soul will be with you through this, even the icky parts.

Now to go read some other posts and leave happier comments!

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220 Will 04.10.08 at 12:19 am

Got linked here by my girlfriend, Lily up there. I can’t relate the way she has but if you want to know something I’m grateful for, it’s whenever I get a seat on the 2 train going home after a long day.

Oh, and for Lily. Before she beats me to a pulp!

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221 Desiree 04.10.08 at 1:20 am

I am grateful for intutition and inpsiration. I am thankful for strong woman who influence and bless. http://www.angelaharris.com/ is a place where a beautiful story of cancer is shared. If you feel so inclined, visit it and follow your inspiration. Best wishes. Lots of love and joy your way.

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222 she 04.10.08 at 8:39 am

i am thankful that i get to volunteer once a week on the oncology floor at my local children’s hospital. they are a weekly reminder of what i have to be thankful for. so are you.

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223 Nancy 04.10.08 at 10:47 am

Hi,
Came here via the lovely Lily. I can tell that you are a special one, simply by your request for others to find gratitude. I watched “The Last Lecture” last night…did you see it? Maybe watch it on Youtube…it might help.
I am grateful for so many things…but for now, I’m with you. It’s all about the chocolate.

Keep the faith…whatever that means to YOU.

Hugs,
Nancy

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224 Organic Mama 04.10.08 at 9:44 pm

Hi Lisa;
Miss Ann, via Tense Teacher brought me here with love and compassion and a strong urge to send you chocolate through your screen.

* I’m grateful for the fabulous conversations that I can have with strangers.
* I’m grateful for the sleep G’morning Mommy” I hear at 6 AM.
* I’m grateful for growing things and the renewal of spring.
* I’m grateful for Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Monty Python
* I’m SO grateful our worlds are connected so that I may know you and those who also send their good wishes.

With love,
Organic Mama

Organic Mama’s last blog post..Silver Panacea

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225 spanknsparkle 04.11.08 at 6:03 am

Wow, I’m new here and stunned with sadness by this post, my thoughts are with you and yours xxx

I am grateful for everyday.

spanknsparkle’s last blog post..Swinging Club – Great Loft Sex

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226 Eden 04.11.08 at 12:21 pm

One thing I’m grateful for today (and every day)…

Joaquin Phoenix taking his shirt off in the extended version of Walk The Line.

Eden’s last blog post..Help a sister out

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227 Christie 04.13.08 at 12:30 pm

I am so so so so so sorry.

I mean, you don’t know me well, but if you need someone to talk to- I’m a pretty good listener :)

Christie’s last blog post..ok, uh, yeah….

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228 ginny 04.13.08 at 1:30 pm

i am grateful that my 7 y/o knows what poison ivy looks like and that she found one growing in the yard so that my husband could get rid of it before it found me! :-)

say h’lo to mickey for us. you are so, so, so awesome, and i don’t even know you. mwah.

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229 Vixen 04.14.08 at 5:35 pm

Um, wow. Hi. I came over from Why Are You Stalking Me – I’ve read here before, but not for awhile, and I don’t think I’ve ever commented. This is some heavy shit, girl. It’s a rough hand you’ve been dealt, and I’m so, SO sorry to hear it.

But while I don’t know you, just from what little I’ve read I believe that if anyone can beat this, it’s going to be you.

I’m grateful for happening upon this post and while it’s horrible to hear, I’m grateful that there are so many people out there that care about each other like these folks do you.

And I’m always grateful for chocolate – in its many delicious and heavenly forms.

I’m adding you to my blogroll, and I look forward to checking back frequently to good news in your battle, and for the day you tell everyone you’re healed and healthy.

Don’t ever give up. It’s just cancer, and you’re stronger than it.

Take care, and best wishes.

Vixen’s last blog post..Nobody EVER Ask Me Again

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230 Siobhan 07.18.08 at 2:13 am

I tried to leave, but I can’t. I just keep reading. I’m also hell-bent determined not to use the s.o word. :o )

What I am grateful for today: watching my 4 yr old chase butterflies. Listening to my 18 m/o learn new words. He’s up to 44 now, 39 of which only I understand. I am grateful for my cockatiel who whistles in one note and reminds me I can hear. I’m grateful for Otter-pops on hot days because my wee Scottish thermostat can’t take anything over 80 (and that’s pushing it).

Siobhans last blog post..T13: You Might Be Scottish If…

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231 Gidget Panama 02.04.10 at 2:03 am

There is plain a lot for me to discover outside of my books. Thanks for the important read,

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