Dear Blog Friends
Dearest Blog Friends,
I can’t believe what I have to tell you. I’m in utter disbelief myself. So much so that I’m drinking wine on a Monday evening. I’m trying hard not to freak out, to stay strong and to remain calm.
O.K., I’m taking a deep breath…in…out…shit, I’m not breathing.
You see my blog friends I feel horrible that I have to tell you this because you have always been so supportive. At this moment I feel like I’m letting you down but I really need your support so please…don’t run away. I need every once of support I can get.
I know I used to be a funny, bitchy blogger and that lately I’ve become quite depressing but life is like that sometimes. Deep in my heart I’m still that funny, bitchy girl that I love so much…that you love so much. You know me, I keep it real no matter what.
And this is no different…
For the life of me I never fathomed that I’d have to share this news with you again and I’m deeply sorry. I wish I could tell you that I landed that six figure job, but instead I have to tell you something more grim…
It’s a threepeat…I have cancer.
I’m sorry. I really didn’t want to tell you but I always put myself out there, so why would this be any different?
The cancer is different this time…it’s spread to some of my organs. I don’t understand what any of it means except that my cousin, the doctor, kept saying, “Lisa, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry.”
Dearest Blog Friends…I realize that once again I’ve left you in a speechless position but would you do something for me? Seriously. If you have made it to the end of this post, whether by feed reader or by stopping by the blog…don’t feel speechless.
Use the comments to tell me one thing…just one thing that you are grateful for today. Even if it’s Peanut M&Ms because I could really go for some Peanut M&Ms right now. The comments are all about gratitude today…
Gratitude…and I’m grateful for my blog friends.
Filed under Cancer Sucks, Current Events, Dirty Martinis, WTF? |229 Responses to “Dear Blog Friends”
8:40 pm on March 31st, 2008
Oh Lisa, I wish I could give you a big hug. You are one of the strongest people I know, both online and in the “real world.” Thank you so much for your willingness to share your story and allow us into your life. What am I grateful for? Friends. And you have many.
Monique’s last blog post..Back at Home ?
8:45 pm on March 31st, 2008
Lisa, I am grateful for becoming friends with you. Even though it is just through the internets, I am grateful for YOU. I would love to be close enough to come give you a big hug in person. You are a fantastic person and this shit is not fair. Your willingness to share your struggles with everyone is a blessing. Much love to you girl. Please feel free to email me ANYTIME if you need someone to talk to….or give me a call. I’ll email you my cell number.
bigfatfuckinghugs
Lucy’s last blog post..The Ingenuity of Engineers
8:49 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful that you share with us.
Stay strong, and start living life how you want to live it, to the fulllllest.
Now’s your chance, sweetie. Just do it.
You will get plenty of hugs on May 3 if you’re up to coming still.
8:50 pm on March 31st, 2008
I realize that no matter what… there’s someone out there who gives a shit… no matter how sick I am, how down I am, how much I hate the world… someone loves me. It’s that one (or 2 or dozen) people that matter, no one else… even when I think I don’t matter… I have to keep moving for them…
Keep moving Lisa… for me… please…
Tori’s last blog post..New Music Monday?
9:02 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful that I have people like you in my life today. People who remind me everyday to live life to it’s fullest no matter what the challenges faced.
I wish I was within driving distance of you, I would drive to your house and sit with you. I’d drink wine with you, break bread with you and hug you.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other and when you can’t do that, I hope that I can be there to help you do it.
Sodapop’s last blog post..Boycotting
9:04 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful that I can be here to listen, no matter how small and insignificant that may be. I am grateful that you have so many people who care about you. I am grateful for you.
I am sorry this happened to you yet again and I will be praying for you ( I don’t know what you believe in but since *I* believe in it, I’ll do it!).
Hilly’s last blog post..100 Things About Me: A Dozen More Admissions Of Insanity!
9:07 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am keeping you in my prayers. I’m sorry that this has hit you again.
BIG HUGS
I too am grateful for this wonderful blogging community. The bloggers seem to be the only people who will be supportive and tell you like it is when you’re family and real life friends fail to do so.
Jen’s last blog post..Packing
9:09 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m following Hilly’s orders to come here, and now that I did…
I’m very sorry, and will hope and pray that everything works out okay for you!!
adena’s last blog post..Dear Shopper at Wal-Mart:
9:09 pm on March 31st, 2008
Please don’t apologize. You don’t have to apologize for anything, ever.
I’m grateful for the people I’ve met through blogging that I never would have met otherwise.
I’m grateful that I met someone who likes cheesecake even more than me!
If there is anything you need, just let us know. We’re here.
Avitable’s last blog post..PPH Bossy
9:17 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful for every moment that the sun is shining, or the rain is falling, or the moon shines brightly. Every day could potentially be any of our last days. I’m grateful that the internet introduces us to people whose paths we would never otherwise cross.
Wishing you a speedy and complete recovery.
jester’s last blog post..Caption Me
9:20 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful to be able to be here if you have need of me. (us really Tense and I are a matched pair)
geek’s last blog post..Sunday
9:20 pm on March 31st, 2008
As so many others have said, I am grateful for the friends I have made through blogging. I am thankful that we can spill out our hearts and souls and connect with others who think as we do. I am thankful for the strength of my friends, you first and foremost among them, because they help me to realize that no matter how bad life may sometimes be, I have people who will lift me up when I need it. And I am grateful that those friends allow me to do the same for them when they are in need.
I will be praying for you and will ask others to pray for you, as well. Much love.
Tense Teacher’s last blog post..?Call me but love and I’ll be new baptized??
9:31 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m so sorry. I came here from the Tequila Con Spreadsheet and found this post. I’ll make sure to add you to my prayers. I read your previous post too and that is just plain messed up.
9:39 pm on March 31st, 2008
Hilly shared your post on Google Reader. I haven’t been here before but couldn’t not come by after hearing your story. At first I wanted to believe that this was a really, really awful April Fool’s Day prank.
You asked for us to tell you what we are grateful for today and so, to honor that request, I’d say I am grateful for my sense of humor which has gotten me through some very rough times.
9:39 pm on March 31st, 2008
you know what i would say to you. i had a seriously long chat with my roommate this afternoon when i got home and we both agree that the power of positive thinking, the strong attitude you have and the great determination you have for life will bring you through this. i just know it. and i also know that you will be an auntie, especially if i have anything to do with it!
even though i’m a couple hundred miles away, i’m here for you and please know that the tingling you feel in your hand is my hand.
i love you sister!
9:49 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful that when I am not strong enough, my friends have been.
And I will gratefully return the favor.
Xoxo
9:51 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’d hoped beyond hoped that it was “nothing”. I’m so sorry.
On the lighter side, because you might need it.
I am thankful to my son, who made me get out the choc. mint ice cream.
The Man who got me jujubes and dill pickle chips.
To my boss, who is kind, gentle and open with me and gives me the scoop
To my dear friends who share all their adventures with me and don’t get too panicked when I say “So… can I blog about this?”
To the fine folks at Brooks who make a damn fine running shoe.
The vineyards of Australia for producing some damn fine shiraz.
To the internet for all the wacky and wonderful people we meet along the way.
Big hugs.
And yeah, I am thankful for peanut M&Ms too.
Nat’s last blog post..Line! The Sequel
9:54 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful for coffee and chocolate and my family to hug. I’m so sorry.
10:00 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful that BBQ season started today becuase I did not have to cook dinner.
I am so horribly sad for you lisa.
10:03 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful for all the friends I have met on line. (yes, that means you too)
If there is anything you need let me know, seriously. *hugs* ?
Divalicious’s last blog post..It’s Official!
10:05 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful for my morning coffee, my job, my car, a roof over my head…
Lisa! I come back from my year long hiatus and have to hear this! I’m so SORRY!! <>
10:29 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful, Lisa, that the Cult of Insanity allowed me to discover you and many other fabulous blogger friends.
I hope that you find the strength and positivity to make it through this dreadful disease for a third and final time.
You are in my thoughts.
cajunvegan’s last blog post..Brought to You by the Roman Numeral X
10:31 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m so very grateful that I’ve gotten to ‘know’ you, and I am here. I’m grateful for my amazing guardian angels, who I’m sending your way, along with many many prayers… I’m grateful for each and every day.
I’m fairly new here, but you know I’m here, and please PLEASE e-mail if you ever want to talk - I have VERY broad shoulders, and many many hugs to give…if you’d like, I’ll send you my phone number.
And like Avi said…no apologies necessary, ever.
Tug’s last blog post..Someone shut my mouth for me please
11:15 pm on March 31st, 2008
Monique, I don’t know how strong I am. I live by the motto, “It is what it is.” That helps me accept things much easier and much faster. I know that I’m very grateful for my online friends and though a lot of people debate whether or not online friend are “real” I have no doubt that they are.
Lucy, I don’t know if my willingness to be so open is a blessing…I mean the Internet could probably use less of the word fuck but what the fuck? You know? I got your number and if you hear someone hysterical laughing or hysterical crying…that’s probably me. **hugs**
Poppy, Thank you. I’m going to do my best to stay strong. If I could life to its fullest then I’d like to go to Disneyworld…with my daughters. If someone finds an Adult Miracle Network let me know.
I still plan on coming on May 3 as long as my ass isn’t in a Philadelphia hospital. In that case then all of you will have to come visit ME!
Tori, Isn’t it most comforting to know that there’s someone there for you…no matter what?
As long as my body will allow me to…I’ll keep moving.
Soda, It’s a shame that we need things like this to be reminded to live life to its fullest but if that’s the lesson all of us take from this, then at least we’ve learned something very valuable.
Hey, if you feel the need for a road trip Pennsylvania is just hours…O.K. maybe nine, ten??
I think the Internet should make a road trip to my house. Can you imagine???
A Clusterfook Road Trip???
Hilly, You are amazing. I do believe in God…just not in the biblical God. I mean I believe in heaven and hell. I pray. I talk to God while I’m in the car. I talk to God while I sit in the back yard and have a cup of coffee…that’s where I go to church. God and I have an informal relationship that works.
And I’m sure God is teaching me, you and all of us something through all of this.
Jen, Sometimes that’s so true. No one will tell you the truth like a blogger. Although you could ask Sister D. She’ll tell you that I will tell everyone the truth no matter what…Internet and to their face.
adena, Thank you so much for your support. I truly appreciate it.
Avitable, I hate delivering bad news. I think I feel worse about telling people that I have cancer again more than I feel bad about actually having again.
I’ll need more cheesecake…and after you finish speed reading a really good novel?…can I borrow them because I’ll need some good reading material while I’m riding in the car to Philadelphia and during treatment.
jester, Ahhh, I love those simple things as well…the sun, the rain, the moon…and crossing paths with people…
Very nice to meet you
geek, Thank you geek…I love the side comment
Tense, For the many reasons you mentioned I, too, am grateful for my blog friends…you included. Thank you for your support and prayers.
Black Belt Mama, I e-mailed you privately
…as it turns out we are practically neighbors whose paths have crossed in another circle.
sizzle, That Hilly…I didn’t know you could do something like that on Google Reader. I wish it was an April Fool’s prank. I’m grateful for the same thing…sense of humor. Isn’t is amazing how it can get you through the worst of times? Thank you for stopping by to offer words of support.
Sister D, You know that I just love you. I will make it through this…like I told you on the phone…I have to see the day you get married, the day you have children, the day I get to be a REAL aunt…not to mention all of that with my own children.
I love you too sister!
Miss Britt, That’s what friends are for…I’m so glad my friends will do the same.
Nat, LOL @ you son who made you get out of the ice cream. And I love the line “So..can I blog about this?”
I still want some Peanut M&Ms too!!
Rachael, Ohhhh, coffee!!! What would we do without coffee??? And our family? I’ll do chocolate only if it’s dark
bluepaintred, BBQ…omg…I want some BBQ. It’s going to be O.K. It has to be O.K. And when it’s better you can make me some BBQ!!!
With corn on the cob.
Divalicious, Aww thanks. I’m very grateful for my online friends as well.
I’ll need cheesecake…Talk to Avitable about the last time I had cancer. And care packages with fun things to do. And Peanut M&Ms.
I’m a child.
RedBetty????, Get the FUCK out of here!!!! Where the hell have you been? OMG!!! I’m so happy to see you!!!! Welcome back!
11:15 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful for friends who lift me up when I am down. I sure hope I can do the same for you.
Much love, baby. xoxoxoxo
Karen Sugarpants’s last blog post..Throwing Out The Skinny
11:15 pm on March 31st, 2008
I stumbled upon your blog through another blogger ’sharing’ your post on the feed reader. First, I’m so sorry to hear your news. And, second, because you asked, today I am grateful for a wonderful, understanding friend who’s stuck by me through all of my rough times. I can only hope you have the same support I have.
Lisa’s last blog post..eggscellent in someone elses eyes
11:16 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful for blogging and the people it brings us to.
Mrs. Flinger’s last blog post..Friday Flashback Time!
11:17 pm on March 31st, 2008
p.s. I WILL see you at TequilaCon.
Karen Sugarpants’s last blog post..Throwing Out The Skinny
11:17 pm on March 31st, 2008
Lisa, Thank you for stopping by to show your support. I have a friend who stands by me no matter what too which means everything to me. Good friends are awesome.
Mrs. Flinger, Yes, isn’t that the most awesome thing about blogging? The people who have come here tonight, like yourself have touched me in ways that you’ll never know.
Thank you.
11:23 pm on March 31st, 2008
Oh Lisa. This post made me cry. I don’t even know you. But I feel like I do. I wish I was closer because I would come and sit with you. Even if we sat in silence (because I sure in the hell don’t have anything positive to say right now). I know you are afraid and I don’t know what to tell you. I would be afraid too. I would be angry and sad and scared and hurt and pissed off and afraid and scared. I would want to take my kids close to me and not let them go. I would want to shut myself off from the whole wide world and focus only on my life. Please, if you decide to go that route (and I will respect it), let me know. Because I do think of you all the time and I’m so so so so so sorry you have to go through this again. I never say this to people on line because it seems so fake and “the thing to say-ish” but I do love you and I wish I could wrap my arms around you right now. I’ll be thinking of you. And as cliché as it is, if you need ANYTHING you call me.
Me
usedtobeme’s last blog post..I don’t go online for one day and look what happens
11:24 pm on March 31st, 2008
Wow, I didn’t have anything remotely uplifting to say. I’m an ass.
usedtobeme’s last blog post..I don’t go online for one day and look what happens
11:25 pm on March 31st, 2008
I am grateful, Lisa, that the Cult of Insanity allowed me to discover you and many other fabulous blogger friends.
I hope that you find the strength and positivity to make it through this dreadful disease for a third and final time.
You are in my thoughts.
cajunvegan’s last blog post..I’m Sexy. I’m Cute. I’m Popular to Boot.
11:31 pm on March 31st, 2008
I’m grateful that I have the opportunity to meet like minded people, like you, I may not have met otherwise.
*HUGS*
NYCWD’s last blog post..Hugeness
12:20 am on April 1st, 2008
Some of the greatest friends I have, I met online. I have only met 1 of them in real life, but I plan on meeting more. I’m thankful for them. That being said…
Today I totally scored 102,000 on Through the Fire and Flames on Guitar Hero today. I was so proud.
That might be anything big to other people, but to me it’s an accomplishment!
Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
yoshi’s last blog post..Vytorin doesn’t do a damn thing…
12:43 am on April 1st, 2008
Hey Girl, worked my way over there thru Lucy’s. I can’t believe your bad news and am SO sorry to hear it. Wishing you all the strenght I can possibly wish you from over here in Dutchyland. Hang in there.
DutchBitch’s last blog post..Do NOT Go There
1:58 am on April 1st, 2008
Like many of the others here, I’m grateful for my friends… both the ones I know IRL and the ones I have online. Our blogging circle is small and I feel like I can turn to you guys more than some of my friends IRL.
I’m thinking about you — and praying for you. If you need anything, EVER, all you have to do is ask.
(((((superfuckinghugehugs)))))
2:05 am on April 1st, 2008
Wow…I don’t think there any words to describe just how much this sucks…
2:23 am on April 1st, 2008
Lisa,
I’ve been offline most of the day and just read your post. I am GRATEFUL that you are here, sharing, fighting, crying and just “being”. I hate that you are enduring this again — but am willing to do what I can from afar to help a friend — because I feel like you are a friend.
I know too well the devastation that cancer brings, but I also know the blessings it can bring also — a closeness to family that was lost, a chance to share love that was difficult to share before and the strength to fight with every fiber of your being. I send my blessings to you and your family during this tough time.
4:12 am on April 1st, 2008
I’m grateful that even in the ugliest of times, there’s beauty to be found in this world if you can just have the strength to look for it.
Sometimes just knowing this is enough to keep me going, even when my strength is failing me.
5:28 am on April 1st, 2008
I am grateful for friends and I am one. Please do not hesitate to email if you need something. Need my number? Ask for it. You definitely won’t go through this alone.
6:59 am on April 1st, 2008
I’m also grateful for the same Cult of Insanity that has allowed me to discover so many wonderful bloggers friends. I’m also hoping to find the strength and the ability to stay positive through this a third time. With the support I have offline and online I may just be able to do it.
Tug, Thanks you for sending some guardian angels…I’m going to need a few. I will keep your email handy. I’m going to need all of the support I can get.
I have the feeling text messaging is going to come in handy as well.
UTBM, I can imagine that if we were friends who lived in close proximity you would have come over, we would have sat on my couch and we probably would have laughed and cried. Sometimes just having someone there…even when they don’t know what to say…is better than not having someone there at all. Believe me, I love you too for all the support you give me no matter what it is that happens in my life.
You have no reason to feel like an ass because your comments were more uplifting than you can see. Believe me, they were.
NYCWD, Thanks Dawg…I know that I’m grateful for your honesty and wonderful sense of humor.
Yoshi, I, too, am grateful for the friends I’ve met online.
Wow, you totally rocked GHIII. I haven’t made it remotely close to you. Perhaps if I make it through this we can rock out together
DutchBitch, Hey Girl! Good to see you, just sorry it’s under these circumstances. Thank you for the well wishes.
Laci, I feel the same way about our blogging circle…sometimes my blogging friends understand me better than the real world does.
Thanks you so much for your kindness…I’ll probably require cheesecake, care packages with girly things and things to do like word searches and books…LOL.
Danalyn, Yes, it sucks balls bigtime…but you forgot to tell me what you are grateful for. Peanut M&Ms??? I still want some…
Colleen, I feel like you are a friend as well…after all, you’ve been around for a long time
I know how close to home cancer has hit you so I appreciate that you can share that with me. Thank you.
Dave2, Wow, that is so true…you also have to be willing to look for it as well.
I’m also grateful for Bad Monkey on my iPhone…he makes me smile every time I have to use it.
Chatty, Thank you Chatty…I’m grateful for friends like you. I’m extremely grateful that I don’t have to go through this alone because I don’t think I would make it through it.
7:10 am on April 1st, 2008
Shit, Lisa. I’m so sorry. I don’t comment often but I do read, and… just, fuck.
If I’m really thinking about it, I guess I am grateful for the realizations I’m suddenly able to make about myself as I leave my twenties behind. Some things are starting to click, and I guess that’s a good thing when so much in this world just doesn’t make any sense.
I’m thinking of you.
diz’s last blog post..Philadelphia Freedom
7:17 am on April 1st, 2008
I’m grateful for the bruise that my baby sister left on my arm when she “playfully” punched me in the arm after reading a snippet from my manuscript: she was so involved in it that how it ended caused that reaction. I poured encouragement into her life and now I am getting it in return from her (although this form kinda hurts still!). It never ceases to amaze me how by opening our hearts and exposing ourselves, we reap strength from it in return.
You are one strong woman Lisa. You’ve opened your heart to complete strangers here, now let us all carry you on our shoulders and fight with you. You are loved, never forget that. =)
7:21 am on April 1st, 2008
I think today my answer is much different than it would have been a couple months ago.
Today I am thankful for each and every minute I have with my family. My husband, children and myself are happy and healthy, and I cling to that through everything.
Also, the blogging world proved to me today through reading your comments that there are a lot of amazing people out there in the world, and you are so very lucky to have such a network of support.
I’ll be praying (its my way of dealing with things) for you and your family. Stay strong. And don’t ever feel like you have to apologize for anything.
This Mom’s last blog post..Heroes
8:32 am on April 1st, 2008
Could you please tell us this is an April Fool’s joke and mean it? Please?
8:42 am on April 1st, 2008
I don’t have anything brilliant or funny to say, but you are in my thoughts. I’ll light a candle.
Today I’m grateful for the good night’s sleep I got last night.
9:04 am on April 1st, 2008
Oh my baby love. I am so sorry. We are all here for you.
9:12 am on April 1st, 2008
ooh hon! WOW! My thoughts are with you and your family. I am sending good, get well, kick its ass vibes your way! Keep your chin up!
DaDuck’s last blog post..Delayed post
9:46 am on April 1st, 2008
I’m one of your new readers and I’m very sad for you. I’m sorry. I’m grateful to read your words because they make me feel as though my woe is me moment that I was having, has suddenly become not that important. What is important is that there are others out there who are need support and encouragement much more.
I will be thinking good thoughts for you and keep you in my prayers.
I’m really glad to have found your blog, you really are an inspiration. You have a lot of courage to sit down and let everyone know.
Hang in there. All the best.
10:08 am on April 1st, 2008
Holy shit girl. I came over to let you know I’d switched blogs and I find this post. I am so sorry. You will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers everyday as you once again, KICK THIS CANCERS ASS !!!! I mean that !!!!
I’m grateful for my kids, my Husband and all of the awesome friends in my life.
Hang in there honey !!!
10:32 am on April 1st, 2008
I don’t even remember how I found your blog, and I’ve only lurked here, but wanted to send some encouragement and hugs and good vibes your way. And as for what I’m grateful for today? I’m grateful it didn’t rain so much last night as to bring the flood waters back, and I’m grateful we have 36 hours before the rains start in again.
Ms Batman’s last blog post..Take me out to the ball game
11:03 am on April 1st, 2008
Awe Lisa…
I am grateful for family, I am grateful for friends (both the “real” and “virtual” regaurdless if we have ever met or not, you are on that list), I am grateful for being able to plant flowers and the feeling that gives me, I am grateful for my animals and the love they share with me -even when they pee on the floor-, I am grateful for chocolate cake!, I am grateful for a divine glass of bubbly, I am grateful for the one piece of dark chocolate I eat before going to bed, I am grateful for the days when my kids wear me down til I am ready to cry, I am grateful for all things great and small everyday,
and most of all,
I am grateful for all the lessons you have taught me, again, over the last year-ish. I was taught many of these lessons when I was much younger and my mother had cancer, and I was reminded when my grandmother had cancer, and again when my grandfather “got” cancer, and again when my aunt “got” cancer, and again when my grandfather and then grandmother each passed away from their cancers… And most recently when my favorite aunt was lost to cancer last summer…
Apparently I have not been listening to those lessons or taking full advantage of all that I have everyday.
One day I came across your blog and you opened up to us about your cancer, and I was struck by a young beautiful mother fighting for her life and her family. Knowing full well my chances of getting breast cancer are sky high and ignoring all that I should be doing to catch it or prevent it from happening to me, you have made me re-evaluate my stupidity, my gifts, my loves and my life. I have made plenty of changes to everything trying to make life a little easier and more fun. I havent gotten off my butt to take care of my yearly mammogram… for YEARS. I am going to make that call today. Because you have taught me that above and beyond everything else in this world the people in your life deserve to have you fight for them.
I have said it before, but if you need anything or just want to talk and cry I am hear and have no problem listening. I can only hope that you hearing all these many people tell you how much you mean to them will help you along the way. Even when your at your lowest, there is always someone to lift you up and help you carry on, let all of us help you. Continue to put your burdons and frustrations out there for us to read. Its a great way to get some of that off your chest and let others know you need a boost. That is what we are here for.
We all love you and hope and pray you will make it thru this just fine. Sending heaps of good thoughts and vibes your way. And if you run out.. Blog you need more!!
Totally here for you, day or night,
Allison
12:09 pm on April 1st, 2008
Lisa, I am very new to your blog, but I just wanted to send a big cyber hug your way. I am so sorry! We are all here and thinking of you always!!! Much Love to you!
12:19 pm on April 1st, 2008
First time visitor, thanks to Because I Said So. We are all out here thinking of you.
12:21 pm on April 1st, 2008
I came upon your blog by accident just today. I haven’t read any of your previous posts. I wish with all my heart that you can fight it once again. Be strong and believe that you can get through it. If nothing else, it will make it a little easier.
I am greatful that I accidentally stopped by your blog today. Being able to lend a few words of support really does mean a lot to me.
Hope you get well really soon.
12:51 pm on April 1st, 2008
I’m grateful to know you.
I’m grateful just for today, because we don’t always know what tomorrow brings.
annie’s last blog post..The Mirror Has Two Faces
1:24 pm on April 1st, 2008
Oh fuck that. I’m grateful that you’re going to kick cancer’s ass again and then back over it with your car and then run it through the garbage disposal so we can go somewhere and drink fruity frozen drinks on the beach.
1:27 pm on April 1st, 2008
You know, every day I look at my feeds. Almost every day I see an update from you. For the last few weeks every time I click on your feed I take a deep breath because I never knew what was going to be said.
Today I am grateful for my bracelet you made for me some time ago during your last battle. I wear it often and will continue to.
You will be ok. You have the strength to kick this in the ass once and for all.
Besides, there is cheesecake to be eaten!
Love you girl.
ocb’s last blog post..Happy Easter, Easter Bunny!
1:40 pm on April 1st, 2008
Christ on a cracker, Lisa. I am so damn sorry that you have to go through this again……
What am I thankful for? Other than the obvious, like my hubby and the cats…there’s the internet, through which I’ve managed to find some wonderful people that are willing to share their everyday lives with people. I’ve made some wonderful friends…hell, I met my husband online, too!
The Other Lisa’s last blog post..We Like Brownies.
1:50 pm on April 1st, 2008
OMG babe. WTF???
But you know what? You’re a strong chick.
Buck up, sweetie.
Want some cheesecake?
I luff you, y’know.
I remember, when my Crohns was really bad, saying to a friend “I wonder how many times I can get kicked in the ass before I don’t get back up again”. So I kind of know where you’re coming from.
Kind of.
*hugs*
J.’s last blog post..Whine, Whine, WINE!!!
1:51 pm on April 1st, 2008
oh… and I am grateful for my daughter.
J.’s last blog post..Whine, Whine, WINE!!!
3:04 pm on April 1st, 2008
I am thankful for you my friend, good mood, bad mood, happy, bitchy, whatever you put out there for us to read. It does not matter to me if it is a negative feeling or how pissed off you are, I love you. Because you took the time to reach out to me, a complete stranger,I know what you are truly made of and how huge your heart is my friend.
3:54 pm on April 1st, 2008
I am blessed to know you and for that I’m grateful.
Remember what I wrote you about? Is it ok if I do it for you specifically? (disney land rocks)
Miss Ann Thrope’s last blog post..Ow, my pinkie
3:56 pm on April 1st, 2008
I am grateful for posts like this that teach me to appreciate all I have instead of whining and complaining about things that really don’t matter.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
AmyD’s last blog post..*evil laugh*
4:07 pm on April 1st, 2008
I’m so sorry…
I’m grateful for bloggers. We are an amazing bunch.
*pixie*’s last blog post..I’d rather stay home
4:09 pm on April 1st, 2008
I’m de-lurking. (Just when I thought I had de-lurked everywhere!)
I first read this at 6.30am my time, it’s now 9pm my time and I have thought about you all day. (Isn’t that the amazing this about blogging?) I still don’t have a single helpful thing to say.
I wish you everything that you need to get through this.
I wish your friends the strength they need to get you through this.
I wish your family all the love and support they need.
I wish there was something I could do.
Oh and I’m grateful for wine, always wine!
Penelope’s last blog post..Make mine a double.
4:11 pm on April 1st, 2008
Bio, The bond between sisters is an amazing thing. I’m grateful for my baby sister.
I hope I am as strong as you think I am. I am going to lean on everyone like there is no tomorrow and live for today.
This Mom, I feel the same about family after all mine has been through the past year so I understand where you are coming from.
Yes, the blogging world has completely amazed me with their support. I feel blessed today. I certainly appreciate the prayers and hope that God is listening.
Poppy, I keep asking Dude if this is an April Fool’s joke and he keeps telling me that it isn’t. I wish I could say that it is
I’d be the most hated blogger in the world…could you imagine? Oh My!
Carol Anne, A good night’s sleep is something I’m craving so badly right now. You don’t have to have anything brilliant or funny to say…the fact that you will light a candle means more than anything…actions speak louder than words.
By the way…I have two bracelets I want to send you! E-mail me your address.
Jen, Thank you so much **hugs**
DaDuck I’m doing my best to keep my chin up and I certainly appreciate the ass kicking vibes. I’m going to need those.
Gina, First of all, it’s nice to meet you. Secondly, don’t ever feel that your tough moment isn’t important because someone else has it rougher. We all have our own level of what’s important based on our life experiences. I understand what you mean though because I do the same thing.
Thank you for you good thoughts and prayers…I truly appreciate them.
LC, I’m grateful for all of the awesome friends in my life too.
I hope I can kick this cancer’s ass…that’s my goal!
Ms Batman, Thank you for coming out of lurkdom to send me good vibes, encouragement and hugs…**hugs**
I imagine from your comments that you are in a flood zone or have been flooded out…so I’m grateful that it’s not going to rain for the next 36 hours either.
Allison, I’m so sorry you have lost so many people in your life to cancer. I understand what it’s like not to re-evaluate your life after all of that…I’ve done the same exact thing. We aren’t perfect human beings.
The support that I have experienced in the past 24 hours has uplifted me and brought me to tears. I’m amazed by the kindness of the Internet.
Thank you for your kind words, they are so appreciated.
Sabrina, I apologize that things aren’t as cheery or as witty as I would like them to be for someone new reading
however I’m grateful you took the time to send your good thoughts.
green3, Welcome and like I said to Sabrina…thank you so much.
Akshita, Thank you for taking the time to offer words of encouragement and support. I’m grateful that you landed here by accident because I need all the support I can get right now.
annie, I couldn’t have said that any better…I’m writing that down and keeping it with me, thank you so much.
KG, That’s just classic! That’s going in my book along with annie’s comment. I want frozen margaritas when we get to the beach, k?
ocb, I’m so sorry that I’m like the feed of doom
Please continue to wear that bracelet and shove it people’s faces…tell them it’s for OVARIAN CANCER!
I plan on kicking some cancer ass once and for all.
The Other Lisa, I’m grateful for the wonderful people I’ve met online as well. I’d like to sell my husband on the Internet some days…
J, Yes, that’s exactly how I feel every other 15 minutes…how many times can I get kicked in the ass? You are right, I am strong.
Yes, send cheesecake, Peanut M&Ms, and I want some Florida oranges.
Oh, you aren’t in Florida…
AuntieRob, Thank you…I love you too. You are so awesome, you know that?
4:20 pm on April 1st, 2008
Are you talking about the thing you showed me? You’ll make me cry ya know.
AmyD, I tell everyone that we all have our own level of what matters to us. I know that someone out there has it 10 times worse than I do so I’m not complaining today.
Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
pixie, You’ve got that right. I’ve seen in the past 24 hours how wonderful bloggers are and I’m blown away.
Penelope, Thank you for de-lurking…I’m just sorry it took this for you to do it. I sometimes think about a blogger when I’m offline too depending on the circumstances. Thank you also for all of your wishes…I hope they all come true.
I’m always grateful for wine as well.
4:45 pm on April 1st, 2008
I’m lighting a candle for you, Lisa ~hugs~ and I’m grateful for people who don’t make fun of me for watching cartoons and who understand that Cheezy Poofs and peanut M&Ms are both food groups–the FDA just fucked up by not putting them in their proper place on the nutritional pyramid.
I’m also grateful for cats with hair so long that I have to use a lint roller on my FACE to get all the fucking fur off after a headbutt and nose kiss.
I’m also grateful for “The Low Spark of High Heeled Boys” and a certain blogger who helped me replace my copy after my scuzzy roommate sold all my best CDs for money to get drunk on.
If there’s anything you need (and remember–if I can make it scented I can usually make it unscented too) just let me know, ok?
PandoraWilde’s last blog post..And the Award Goes To…
4:51 pm on April 1st, 2008
Oh, wow. I am so sorry. What am I grateful for? That there are brave, wonderful people like you in this world, that make it a good place to be sometimes. I don’t know you. You don’t know me. But I will say a prayer for you every single day, starting now. And I haven’t prayed since I lost my mother, 18 years ago. Everybody says the “if there’s anything I can do” thing. I will say this: “If there’s anything you need to scream, that I can listen to? If there’s anyone you need to curse, that I can curse with you? I’m your girl.” You send me an email and I will send you my phone number, and you can scream and curse in my ear for hours, if you need to.
5:14 pm on April 1st, 2008
Oh and, Im in florida.. I will send oranges with your gnomes since Im a lame ass and cant get to the post office for nothing.. I will for sure.. get you oranges and gnomes ASAP. No more excuses!
5:23 pm on April 1st, 2008
ATTENTION anyone who is anyone: Miss Ann is holding a raffel. Read This Post!
This collective effort by all of us who care will send Lisa & family to Disneyland!
Please go check it out and give what you can give. Even if it is a quarter.
usedtobeme’s last blog post..Pubic Service Announcement
5:25 pm on April 1st, 2008
I’d love to donate to something like that, but Miss Ann is as chickenshit as Dooce, and she’s blocked me from visiting and commenting on her blog. Sorry Lisa.
Avitable’s last blog post..A Unicorn is Born
5:34 pm on April 1st, 2008
Jesus Christ. Can we be grown up for five fucking minutes?
Donate to me then: wtfroflmfao@gmail.com
I’ll forward it.
That applies to anyone who cannot/will not go there.
usedtobeme’s last blog post..Pubic Service Announcement
5:37 pm on April 1st, 2008
Nobody is banned from my blog.
Miss Ann Thrope’s last blog post..Read this post right now! But not in a feed reader because it’s UPDATED
5:37 pm on April 1st, 2008
Dear Lisa,
I came upon your blog via your comment at dooce.com.
My comment is the one below yours.
I am grateful for today. I am grateful for my second chance. I am grateful for my decaf hazelnut coffee from Dunkin Donuts and for the fog in my yard that is still covered in three feet of snow.
I am grateful that I still have a few friends who “get” me.
edit: Oh, and I get why you feel the way you do about those images and about all of us who found them “peaceful”blah blah followers…they are not in your shoes.
Jessica
5:53 pm on April 1st, 2008
Lisa I wish I could take your pain away at this moment. I may not have great words of wisdom like some have posted but I agree with all of them. You have great friends who care about you and will keep you and your family in their thoughts.
I am grateful for the hundreds of stary skies on moon lit nights I have gotten to see. The hundreds of sunny days I have gotten to enjoy. The hundreds of beers I have enjoyed with my friends on those days.
Frankie’s last blog post..Todays Tweets 2008-03-31
6:08 pm on April 1st, 2008
Gosh, I am speechless, but not as a bad thing but because I want to say all of these encouraging things to you and I don’t know where to start. I won’t say I’m sorry, because I’m sure you have heard that - all I can say is that you WILL beat this!!
Here is what I’m grateful for - I am grateful for reality television. I know it sounds stupid but it is my time to laugh at someone else’s life for a change
Please know that my thoughts are with you!
Erin’s last blog post..Stupid Is as Stupid Does
6:15 pm on April 1st, 2008
It’s not allowwwwwwwwwed to come back again. No. It’s not. That dumb mother fucker. How dare it. That shit is fucked up. Where does f-ing ass-eyes canSer get the fancy notion that it can just show back up whenever the hell it feels like?! Wtf?! Stick your foot up its ass, girl! You can do this. You can do it.
GirlintheCrosswalk’s last blog post..Fucking having a beer.
6:19 pm on April 1st, 2008
I am here via usedtobeme.
I am grateful for each second we have, although i have a really shitty way of showing it. everything worth anything is so fragile, too fragile to really think about often.
miracles happen sometimes and if that is what it takes, then that is what it will be. try to find the way back to you when you can. those who know you and love you do so because of only that.
caspar’s last blog post..McCain/Althouse - ‘08
6:22 pm on April 1st, 2008
Big Lurker who has followed you all over with your many bloggie incarnations. I am so sorry and keep my fingers crossed you responsive to treatments and in am manner that has a little discomfort as possible. Huge hugs to you, dude and your kids.
I am grateful for pretty much everything. I have two beautiful kids through the blessing that is foster to adoption, a husband and a marriage that has survived turbulent times and strife, a family I adore and wonderful friends from RL and the blogsphere. To top it all off, I have work that I love and gives meaning and sustenance to my life.
My thoughts are withyou
6:26 pm on April 1st, 2008
Shit, Lisa. Very sorry to hear this. I’m just meeting you and everything. Never a need to apologize, in my opinion. This is your space, this is where you share anything and everything happening in your life.
As for me being thankful…I’m thankful at the moment for Hawaiian pizza. And that I might get to meet you at TequilaCon.
Karl’s last blog post..Happy Birthday, Mom, Alyson, and Ashley
6:53 pm on April 1st, 2008
Sorry about putting this in your comments, Lisa, but since Miss Ann banned me (a ban that has magically disappeared since I wrote that comment), I had no avenue to mention that I couldn’t donate.
Avitable’s last blog post..A Unicorn is Born
8:02 pm on April 1st, 2008
Thank you for thinking enough of me to light a candle.
melodyann, I’m honored and deeply humbled that you would say a prayer for me after not being able to pray for 18 years. If you are able to find the strength to do that, then I can find the strength to fight. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I’m sorry that you lost your mom…so very sorry. I don’t want my little girls to go through that.
I can always use a good cursing partner. You should really read the post previous to this one.
Allison, LOL you don’t have to send oranges and don’t worry about the gnomes
UTBM, I am overwhelmed by the kindness of all of you. Totally overwhelmed.
Avitable, I love you. I love Miss Ann. I mean that with the most sincerity…you know I don’t bullshit. Please, for one day could we put the gauntlet down and I don’t mean put it down for donations…I don’t mean that at all. I mean just let it be. It would mean the world to me.
Miss Ann, What you are doing is one of the kindest things anyone has ever done for my family. I want to spend time in a happy place with my daughters in case something happens…I want them to have a happy memory to hold on to for the rest of their lives.
Jessica, Thank for taking the time to stop by, comment and express your gratitude. I appreciate that you understand my point of view on those pictures.
Did you mention Hazelnut coffee…from Dunkin Donuts??? YUM.
Frankie, You don’t need great words of wisdom…you took time to express your gratitude and remind me of the wonderful stars in the sky that I love to look at late at night…when it’s quiet and peaceful. Ahhh, when I can take a deep breath.
What more wisdom could you offer than that?
And beer…
Erin, I hope I can beat this…keep your faith that I will.
I’m with you…I’m grateful that Hell’s Kitchen starts tonight and American Idol is on right after. I’m grateful that Top Chef is on Wednesday nights. Yes, I like reality T.V.
Girl, I know, for real, I totally agree with…the mother fucker. I need your anger right now to kick some canSer azz!
That’s a Girl!
caspar, Thanks for stopping by…I’m also grateful for each second. I, too sometimes have a really shitty way of showing my gratitude which is why I opened the comments up for everyone to express theirs. Sometimes we just don’t think about the little things we are grateful for and we need to pause for a moment.
Zombie Mom, I’m glad that you de-lurked and I’m amazed that you have followed my insane travel from domain to domain. Much respect to you for that
That’s awesome that you were able to be a foster parent and then adopt…that’s so awesome. It sounds like you have a wonderful like and lots of blessings to be grateful for.
Karl, I feel like I have to apologize when I’m delivering bad news on top of bad news. It makes me feel so glum.
Ahhhh, Hawaiian pizza…OMG YUMMY. I’m going to be at TequiliaCon come hell or high water. I know someone else who is going and she lives very, very close to me. If I can’t drive maybe I can beg her for a ride.
I hope I get to meet you and a bunch of other wonderful bloggers.
8:37 pm on April 1st, 2008
Lisa,
I’m so so sorry that you are going through this again. But, from what I know of you, through this blog, I will say with utmost confidence - you are going to kick cancer’s ASS! AGAIN! Because you HAVE to.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong. You will come through this. You will.
G-d bless you.
Stephanie
9:02 pm on April 1st, 2008
I’ll dispense with how sorry I am, because surely you know we all are.
Here is what I’m grateful for: David Letterman’s Top Ten Lists and my continued faith, despite all the crapness.
cupcake’s last blog post..Coal in my stocking
9:06 pm on April 1st, 2008
I came here via UTBM. Wow. I don’t even know you and i feel like someone just punched me in the stomach. I am so sorry that you have to endure this yet a third time. Please know that a lot of people will be praying for you.
I am very thankful that I got to wake up this morning and see the faces of my children once more. I am thankful that I made it home to put them to bed and kiss them goodnight.I am thankful that my husband returned home safely from work this morning. (he is a firefighter)
I am thankful for each and every day as it could be my last.
Be strong.
9:32 pm on April 1st, 2008
Here via Hilly and Twitter.
I am grateful that I have people who care about me. And I want you to know that you are in my prayers, you and your family.
I know what it is like, to be sick, and to fight. Take care of yourself.
Tracy Lynn’s last blog post..Post 684: My Team Of Terrorist Goat Taking Cohorts
9:39 pm on April 1st, 2008
Have you tried the dark chocolate peanut m&ms? Divine!
I am grateful for my dog. She loves me like nobody else, she never wavers.
Kizz’s last blog post..You Freaking Pansy
10:01 pm on April 1st, 2008
The last few months have been a trial for so many of us. Keep your chin up.
Today I’m thankful for a the sunshine. Oh and goats.
Goats have the power to force me out of bed on the darkest days. Black licorice. Close third. Maybe even a tie. I might get out of bed for black licorice.
10:02 pm on April 1st, 2008
I am grateful that I was able to watch my son play baseball tonight,and to cuddle under a warm blanket in the cold air with my daughter.
saintseester’s last blog post..Touching Greatness
10:28 pm on April 1st, 2008