You Gotta Have Faith

Faith is courage; it is creative while despair is always destructive. ~David S. Muzzey

I’m not even sure there are words to describe what I’m feeling. Friends…dear friends, whether old or new, you have completely amazed me. Your support and kind words have alleviated so much pain…I don’t know if you can begin to understand your power.

Thank you for sharing your gratitude and reminding me what I have to be grateful for as well. From family, friends, starry skies…to coffee…your lists reminded me that there is so much in life to be grateful for. I’m going to print the comments and carry them with me wherever I go so that when I’m in doubt about the good and about the gratitude during bad times…I have your words to remind me.

You showed me that online friendships are just as real as offline. I was reduced to tears, and admit still cry when I read the posts that my dearest blog friends have posted in response to Miss Ann’s kindness. My daughter’s have been through so much in the past four years as cancer has ripped our family apart. My biggest fear is that something could happen to me and they will be left with bad memories. To give them a wonderful memory and spend some magical time with them means more to me then anything.

Friends you also reminded me to have faith which is something I lost a long time ago. I used to feel that people said, “I’ll keep you in my prayers” as a way of saying something when they were at a loss for words. I have to believe that you mean it…I have to have that faith. I do believe in God in my own warped way…maybe not in the biblical way, in a church, a temple or the traditional sense…but I believe in God.

I believe that God has a plan for me and I’m here for the ride. It’s my obligation to be open to his plan, listen intuitively and have faith that he’ll see me through. I know that without this faith…I won’t make it through this. Without your faith I won’t make it through. Yes, this from the girl who doesn’t understand the bible. Do I have to understand the bible to have faith in God? No.

We all have our opinion of God. We fight about it…we go to war over it. Is all of that necessary, I mean really, is it necessary? I feel like I’m going to have a Rodney King moment here, “Can we all get along”?

When everyone tells you that you gotta have faith…what do you put your faith in?

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