The only reason why we ask other people how their weekend was is so we can tell them about our own weekend. ~Chuck Palahniuk
First of all, I feel like I owe you an apology. It’s not like me not to respond to each and every comment left here. Because you took the time to share your thoughts with me I really want and believe me, have something to share with you. It’s that I’m emotionally exhausted at the moment. I hope that you can understand and will continue to offer your support.
It looks like your kindness and generosity are going to send my beautiful daughters to Disney World. I have no idea what exactly is happening but there are a lot of people working together to make a dream come true. I haven’t said anything to Cam or Teenie yet.
In fact, I haven’t even told them I have cancer again.
They are aware that I’m sick and they know I’m going to a number of doctor’s appointments. I may be very brave in my fight against cancer but heart broken that I have to tell those two wonderful little girls that I’m sick again. When I think about all of the things they’ve missed out on in their lives because I’ve had cancer…I start to sob.
Like now.
I don’t lie to my children when they ask me questions because I keep it real. I know what they are going to ask me…”Mommy, are you going to die?”
The truth is…I don’t know. This time…I don’t know. It’s complicated. I don’t want to die. I want to fight and I’m going to fight. I am determined to win…kick ass and survive…but I can’t tell my children with any type of certainty that I’m going to be just fine.
As a parent I’ve never been put in this position. As a child I’ve never had to deal with such a situation. I’m at a loss.
They are silly, happy girls…just last night Cam and Teen were singing the most ridiculous song…
I’m a Kung…fu…shrimp…I’m-a-naked-shrimp….
I was like WTF???
I’m a Kung…fu…shrimp…I’m-a-naked-shrimp….
In between verses I heard roars of laughter and then they sang it in another key. A minor I believe.
I’m a Kung…fu…shrimp…I’m-a-naked-shrimp….
After I heard it about 10 times I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs…”SHUT UP!!!!” but I couldn’t. I have to revel in their silliness because soon their worlds are going to be shattered with bad news.
Instead I showed them some dance moves doing my best Bruce Lee impression singing…
I’m a Kung…fu…shrimp…I’m-a-naked-shrimp….
So, we will all enjoy this last weekend of normalcy. Tonight I’m going out with my best friend to see Sonny Landreth at the Sellersville Theater. I’ve never seen Sonny play solo but only when he was with John Hiatt (who I adore!) and the Goners.
Tomorrow Dude and I will take Cam out for her free birthday breakfast at IHOP where I will watch them eat pancakes. Then we’ill go see the matinée show of Nim’s Island.
Sunday evening I’ll be seeing the Rolling Stones Shine A Light with my best friend.
Monday morning I’ll go for a biopsy. We will know next week exactly how bad the situation is but for now I say…fuck it. Let’s have fun this weekend. Let’s forget all the drama that’s going on in the world and have a good weekend.
This is the first weekend in weeks that I’m taking my sick ass out. Hell, I might even sneak up to the Coach Outlet and spend my $100 gift certificate on a new spring bag.
When I get a spare $20 I’m getting this hat.
So, I hope you don’t have the ridiculous…
I’m a Kung…fu…shrimp…I’m-a-naked-shrimp….
…in your head now. If you do, good, because it’s stuck in mine. While you are singing Kung Fu Shrimp, what are your plans? Anyone playing Guitar Hero III? I seriously need some practice.
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Kyra (savy) 04.05.08 at 12:09 pm
My kids are weird too. Right now one is singing about sniggle-wiggles and broken butts. Haven’t figured that one out.
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Miss Britt 04.05.08 at 12:27 pm
Hypothetically… in what color?
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Lisa 04.05.08 at 12:39 pm
Kyra, What is it with butts? My kids are obsessed with the word “buttocks”. They giggle whenever someone says “butt” or “but”.
It must be some underground drug thing. I mean they are 8 and 11 and you know how that goes. JUST KIDDING!
Britt, Hypothetically I’d have to say black since I wear so much black…I’m goth that way. I’m a 41 EMO chick.
annie 04.05.08 at 1:05 pm
LOVE the HAT! Ha-ha!
I’m to the point now that when the baby gets on my nerves, I usually just see it as SO absurd, I HAVE to laugh. Sometimes he’s being naughty, so I have to hide that I’m laughing. Fuck it, they’re just kids. Remember when we thought the world was all ours and when we were silly and we didn’t know anything but the wonderfulness of that very moment?
And for God’s sake get that Coach bag!
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Dave2 04.05.08 at 1:34 pm
Hey, my saying “fuck-it” on a regular basis is what gets me through the week! Have fun tonight!
TSM 04.05.08 at 1:40 pm
I am seriously *this* close to looking that song up just so I can know how the tune goes. Then I can sing it all day in its proper form.
And I think most of life’s problems can be solved with this simple phrase: Buy the hat.
Nat 04.05.08 at 1:48 pm
Hypothetically, I think Britt is probably thinking what I’m thinking. (Maybe she should drop me a line.)
Let the kids be kids. My son and his buddy Owl are talking about potions that will give them extra arms to carry more swords into the underworld.
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Dawn @ Coming to a Nursery Near You 04.05.08 at 2:04 pm
I love GH! We have 1, 2, 3 and hubby bought me 80’s Encore for my birthday, along with MY OWN wireless guitar!
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Tug 04.05.08 at 2:05 pm
If you don’t hypothetically get the hat, e-mail me your address, k?
Enjoy your weekend, live it up & have a ball!
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Hilly 04.05.08 at 2:06 pm
I think we should all get those hats and wear them at TequilaCon!
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yoshi 04.05.08 at 2:16 pm
I haven’t played GH hero since I got that great score on Dragonforce. I tried expert once, and thought. Hmmm. Not for me. LOL.
OMG i love that hat!
and wait. there’s a TequilaCon? I’m so there.
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radioactivegirltori 04.05.08 at 3:25 pm
I think I might be able to knit a hat like that…want me to try and send it to you? What colors do you like? I am sometimes a slow knitter, but I would try it if you want me to.
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Frankie 04.05.08 at 3:50 pm
No GH3 tonight but Rock Band with my friends who I adore and my new lover boy who I am really starting to adore.
Have a great weekend.
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Penelope 04.05.08 at 4:33 pm
The hat is fantastic! You need one in every single colour! Hell, I want one in every single colour!
Have a brilliant time this weekend!
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HeatherK 04.05.08 at 5:32 pm
You just gave me a John Hiatt flashback—when my oldest was a (colicky) baby she would only settle and go to sleep being danced around the kitchen to his ‘Walk on’ cd. Your girls sound wonderfully nutty!
Kristie 04.05.08 at 5:41 pm
I hope you’re having a great weekend, full of friends, COACH, and Kung Fu Shrimp. Whatever the hell those are.
This weekend…Final 4! That pool at work is my retirement plan. Yeah, good luck with that one.
BTW, I’ve only recently found your site…but I’m busily hoping for the best for you and your family.
Maggie 04.05.08 at 5:49 pm
I’ve been flip flopping about taking my own girls to the Nim movie. Let me know what you think!
Was the shrimp song to the tune of Kung Fu Fighting? Or Hong Kong Fooey?
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SJ 04.05.08 at 7:53 pm
Lisa, you’ve mentioned being shocked at how expensive wigs are. Check out Paula Young Wigs. They have a huge selection, and start at less than $50. I’ve ordered several wigs from them, and never been dissatisfied. Some of their styles are matronly, but they also have a lot of current, trendy looks. Also, they have a section on medical hair loss. Plus, if you get on their mailing list, they offer discounts and special deals.
You are in my thoughts and prayers every day.
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Especially Heather 04.05.08 at 8:32 pm
Regarding wigs.. I decided after spending 800 dollars on wigs to go sans hair
I just smile when people stare… 
I found them hot and itchy too… which is one more thing that I had to deal with on top of cancer.. And what better excuse to wear funky bold earings!
Regarding kids and cancer.. I know how tough it is, but when Easton asked me if I was going to die I told her that everyone is going to die sooner or later, but not to worry because I am not dead yet
I still have so much life in me. Then she asked if we could go to the mall, so there ya have it 
Thanks for coming to my blog, I pray for you every single day and think about you often. Know that.
-H
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B 04.05.08 at 8:47 pm
Kids are entertained by the oddest and weirdest thing sometimes but that’s what makes them kids!
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girlinthecrosswalk 04.06.08 at 12:59 am
I think Kung fu Shrimp is going to be the tune I write on my guitar.
Catchy… it needs a guitar part.
Love you! And hope your weekend is going FANTASTICALLY!
This will be ok. It has to be… I already decided.
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ArkieRN 04.06.08 at 1:59 am
I remember having to tell my son I had cancer. It was hard.
RedBetty 04.06.08 at 2:09 am
I saw a sneak preview of the Stones movie the other night and totally thought of “The Rock Bitch” hehehe. I hope you enjoyed it.
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Lisa 04.06.08 at 11:10 am
annie, I’ve had to hide laughter from my kids too. Sometimes they say and do the funniest things and you know you have to discipline them.
You mean the world stopped being ours??? Shit no one told me that. That’s why I love my kids because they allow me the ability to still be silly.
I haven’t made it to the Coach outlet yet…maybe today.
Dave2, I need to say “Fuck It” more often…maybe 100 times a day. Last night was a lot of fun!
TSM, It’s a Clusterfook Family original. I’ll have to have the girls sing it and put it up here…LOL
Nat, I’m not sure what Britt is thinking…although she has a devious mind at times.
If your son comes up with the right potion…let me know. I could use some extra arms.
Dawn, There’s an 80’s Encore??? What is this of which you speak?
Tug, I’m really too humble for that and have such a hard time accepting gifts…seriously. Funny though, I give them in a heartbeat. What’s up with that?
So far the weekend has been good. Hope yours has been too.
Hilly, That’s a FANTASTIC IDEA!!!
yoshi, TequilaCon is on May 3rd in Philadelphia.
radioactivegirltori, Wow, I could never knit to save my life. Thank you so much for the offer but I wouldn’t want you to go to all that trouble. I love hand knitted scarves though…LOVE THEM…black, gray and pinks are my favorite colors.
Frankie, Happy to hear you have a new lover boy
and that you are still Rockin’ the Band…
Penelope, Isn’t that hat fab? I do like all the colors too. I wear so much black though. Pink is my favorite color but I only wear pink to bed. God, I’m weird.
Hope you have a great weekend as well.
HeatherK, Walk On is a great album. I love John Hiatt…I’m a big fan of his. My girls are nutty for sure. They get it from me.
Kristie, I have no clue what Kung Fu shrimp are…just something the girls made up.
Good luck in the pool. I’m in the American Idol pool which is so much more lame than the Final 4, I know.
Also, welcome to Clusterfook.
Maggie, I’ll let you know about Nim after we see it this afternoon. We saw the previews when we went to see the Hannah Montana movie Oye.
Kung Fu Shrimp was there own arrangement. I really think I’ll have them record it and put it up here.
Sj, Thank you for the link…I’m definitely going to check it out. I know from volunteering for the American Cancer Society that they will issue vouchers for wigs and help with the cost. I think also that my insurance company may help out as well. I’m not sure.
Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
H, I also thought about going without a wig and wearing all of my funky earrings. I just don’t have a beautiful face like you do though. I think I’d look horrible.
I have a lot of earrings though and I make them too.
I’m glad I found your blog
B, I thank God for the silliness of my kids.
Girl, Can you imagine turning that into a hit song. OMG, that would be funny.
ArkieRN, I’m sorry you had to tell your son you had cancer. I understand how hard it is. How did he take the news?
RedBetty, I’m not “The Rock Bitch” without reason you know. Looks like the plans to see the movie are pushed to next weekend though
Good to see you back online!!
A Whole Lot of Nothing 04.07.08 at 12:47 am
Thanks for making me think about the little things like watching my girls eat pancakes.
And that hat - I’m buying one for you and me even tho I don’t have cancer.
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Fogspinner 04.07.08 at 11:27 am
My heart breaks a hundred times for you to have to sit your kids down and break this news to them, again. I was lucky and my son grew up with the fact that I’m sick and he just doesn’t know any other way. He knew how to call 911 before he knew his own phone number. I never had to say the words… it’s just understood at our house.
You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday.