I’m over the miscommunication and the fuck ups. Totally over it. I spent a year being angry and a year blogging about it. Those posts have been deleted because I don’t ever want to talk about how angry and how self destructive I was.

We’ve already tried the malpractice route and because it’s so complicated we’ve been turned down twice. No one wants to touch the case.

So my choices are to let it swallow me up whole or keep on marching with my chin up high because the minute I give in my life is done. Trust me, I almost died in October.

So far my own cancer experience seems like it’s the biggest case of _overwhelm_ I’ve ever dealt with. Your story doesn’t make mine seem even one bit better. Crap. This cancer docs not communicating nor interacting with our primary care docs is getting old old old and the number of times it happened is getting me down.

If you don’t have a good time at Disney I’m going to personally come and strangle you. . . which would be hard on my best days but damn it, you deserve to enjoy, ok? And like right now! Do it for me and the other cancer patients are too sick to go. We are so excited for you!

As for the treatment money - lets talk about what the situation is when you get back.

If the frozen pea fund http://frozenpeafund.com can’t help someone get a social media fundraiser off the ground I’ll be really surprised.

Right now we don’t give funds to individuals but we’re a.) developing an emergency grant / loan fund and b.) trying to help others use the net to leverage social connections and people who want to do good - to help us in general and to help individuals like you. And we’ve been pretty decent at that so far

Look at all these people who we could harness to help BEYOND helping you guys have a great time!

PS - asking a part of your team to find a good malpractice lawyer might be a really empowering step to take too.

I think I’ll just live in a fantasy bubble until I come back from Disney because after I come back my living hell begins.

Is it at ALL possible that this news is, kind of, sort of, good news?

I mean, not that cancer is good news.

But is it possible that there is a better chance of beating it now?

Or am I being naive?

Nina, Trip is booked. Sloane Kettering is an option we are still considering and we may consider taking you up on a place to crash!

NYCWD, I think he is more competent. I can’t wait for Disney. My bags are partially packed.

Jen, Thank you very much for the link!!!

yoshi, LOL @ GH3…I hate it when a kid kicks my ass.

J., I plan on having a great time!

Tug, I’m so glad she loved the bracelet!!! I’ve got my peace again.

Dimplz, That is so kind of you for putting my name on a petition.

I’m sorry to hear about your lupus. I hope you are doing O.K.

Colin, It may sound crazy but it really makes a lot of sense because it is in so many organs it’s hard to know where it originated from.

annie, I have last years bills on a payment plan so this one will get added to the bunch.

geek, I’m in the same boat with a house falling apart. I have appliances ready to go at any minute and I refuse to stress out over any of it anymore.

that girl, I tried to pursue a malpractice suit but was told I have no grounds.

It was too complicated for the lawyers to handle basically.

Chatty, That’s a very good and valid point. They actually DEMAND all of their money NOW.

Mary, I can’t WAIT until Disney World. I talked about it nonstop at work yesterday.

Cindy, I’m so glad you’re here! Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts and adding me to your links.

Karl, We tried the lawsuit…it was a no-go.

I cannot wait to go to Disney. My suitcase is halfway packed. I’m getting the girls swimsuits this weekend and packing their bags.

I CANNOT WAIT!!!!!!!

Have a blast at Disney. The rest will all sort itself out.

Karl’s last blog post..Little Boy Blue, Come Blow Your Horn

Cindy’s last blog post..The purge

Checking on you every day and praying for your family.

that girl’s last blog post..and another thing…